You'll see as I go

[lil_loser]

ghost exploration...maybe

I tried to write something yesterday, but had my brothers friends over, and decided yesterday was simply not the time. I didn't really have all that much to say anyway - the end of my work week, HD had to cancel his plans to hang out last night, but we're going out tonight in...less than three hours(I guess I should take a shower, eh??). And I had been invited to go "ghosthunting" with a few of my work friends.

It's really funny, the whole 'ghosthunting' shabazz. They get a copy of "Weird NJ" and then decide which places they are going to visit to see if there is anything weird with them. It's only a few people from work that go on these ventures : Skanky Ho(ocassionally), LiR Lisa, Mr. Motorcycle, The Gay duo(ocassionally), Ghetto Booty, and Loudmouth. The only reason Ghetto Booty goes is because she's ga-ga over Mr. Motorcycle. *cringe* he invited me...

I'm not cringing over that, I'm cringing over the fact that he's such a nice guy, and uber handsome, and I *know* he has a bit of a crush on me...so I don't know if I should go or not. It's not that I hate that idea of him digging me, no sir, it's just that I can't go for him, 'cuz I'd hurt Ghetto Booty and pretty much every other girl at work would hate me ('cuz, man, you gotta see this boy to believe just how good-looking he be *nods*). So why even get close? I think I make things that much worse for myself then they should be...

Well, on the whole "ghosthunting", I'm still contemplating if I should go or not. Cuz it'd be a day that I have free - I think - a Wednesday night, HD didn't ask if we're doing anything, and we're going out Thursday, so I doubt we *are* doing anything Wednesday...and it would be fun to go out with other people, 'cuz the group is people that i mingle with at work(everyone but the "ocassionally" people, and I doubt they'll go). I guess I'll find out tomorrow...

Well, I'm gonna shower...have a good day.

 

[lil_loser]

lucky gal

I'm really lucky, ya know? It's one of those things that you never realize, until you're with someone that means the world to you, and they tell you they're never going to let you go. The whole idea that I would even be tempted by Mr. Motorcycle or by anyone else for that matter doesn't compare to the fact of what I have now. And I wouldn't give that up for the world.

I get so worried. Too worried. I was worried that all of this was just going to end, that everything that I was thinking was *good*, was just going to blow up in my face, and I'd be left standing alone. Those fears were completely expelled last night. Then I was worried that, even though he cares about me, and says he loves me, why hasn't he kissed me?? Am I not good enough to be kissed? I felt like I was being taunted, to be honest.

Those fears were also quelched last night - but of course, no kiss yet. He wants our first kiss to be *our* first kiss. No one else on his mind but me, and wants everything to just be perfect. He's just so...so amazingly wonderful and sweet and romantic. The last guy I was with wasn't over his ex...so I doubt he thought of me when he kissed me. I have no fear of that with HD...and I find that to be very comforting.

I'm not worried about God either. I told him my views on that, and how I feel and we (pretty much) agree with our feelings toward the Big Man(course, I think it's a Big Woman, but I won't tell him that one *cringes*). But I think that's just something on the back-burner for now (for me, I don't know for sure for him). Not something I'm worried about, that's for sure.

There is only one thing that I really am worried about, actually. And I talked to him about this yesterday. It's the fact that we work together, in different areas, but together, and we could probably lose our jobs if anyone found out. Either that, or be re-located to different parts of the store so we don't have to work together, directly. It's funny, because I think this is one of the most important ones, but it is something that he is not worried about at all. Which makes sense for him not to be worried, because everyone there knows that he has a girlfriend, which is true, they just don't know that he has a *different* girlfriend. Ooooooo, sly dog. So whenever he mentions,"I'm going out with my girlfriend tonight", no one thinks anything of it. However, for me, everyone is on my case as to who I'm seeing and if I'm not seeing anyone, why don't I go out with Mr. Motorcycle or so-and-so or so-and-so. I mean, my last boyfriend was pretty much bombarded by all the (teenage)female cashiers. And naturally hated once they found out he broke up with me (*shakes head* girls are so sillly!). So once they find out that I *do* have a boyfriend, just not saying who he is, oooo, I can only imagine.
And then, to make matters worse, when I see my HD, I just want to pounce on him and give him a hug and tickle him or hold his hand or have my arm around him or whatever. I can't do that. I've just got to be "Hi [name]!", like the cheerful best-friend that I am. I don't *want* to be the cheerful best friend, I want to pounce pounce pounce pounce pounce!!! And I haven't even kissed him yet, so just imagine how much worse it will become when I have!

Yeah...but on the whole, not worried anymore

 

[lil_loser]

yeah yeah

*yawn* lucky me again! I got off the phone with HD at around...7:15 or so, and then not even five minutes later, my Chica called, and said she had gotton off of work early and we could hang out! Wow, I never get to hang out with my Chica so the fact that we were able to spend a few hours having "girl fun" time, was just nice. We got to talk about all the on-goings of our lives, and basically, just kinda mingle. Like old times.

But now I feel extrememly exhausted. I woke up at 3 in the PM today, and it's only 10:30...I mean, honestly, I've only been up for about 7 hours...*ugh* this is so very sad. I was feeling fine til I had a Blizzard - those things rock of course - but now I just want to sleep...oh yeah, that'd be so nice...yeah...

But I got me some people over, and I plan on talking to HD later, so I should stay awake and be a good girl. Perhaps I'll do something silly to pass the time...

 

[lil_loser]

dreams

I was going to write this interesting dream I had, which really freaked me out to no end. It freaked me out even more, because when I first had it, it seemed like something that could possibly be on the horizon. But then the more that I thought about it, the more that I realize that it was just a dream, and the more silly it sounds - especially once talked about it out loud. *rolls eyes* Dreams are silly.

But then, what made my day that much better, was when I got up, I jumped on the 'puter to check the weather and my HD had left me an IM - and email, just in case - telling me all about the dream *he* had *smiles*. Soooooooo much better than mine! I have to write it down here, so when I'm feeling depressed or just uber girly, I can always look this up and be cheerful(of course, I saved it too, but *smiles* I can't help but brag about how lucky I am to have this guy)

HD (12:38:50 PM): im just im-ing you to tell a story
HD (12:39:05 PM): of this breath taking dream i just had
HD (12:39:26 PM): which left me searching for you with my hands when i woke-
HD (12:39:29 PM): *nods*
HD (12:39:36 PM): a very good dream
HD (12:40:11 PM): *coughs*
HD (12:40:12 PM): well
HD (12:40:25 PM): it all starts out as we were talking last night
HD (12:40:38 PM): setting is my backyard
HD (12:40:44 PM): the plave
HD (12:40:47 PM): place*
HD (12:41:01 PM): the hammock - oooooo hammock
HD (12:41:29 PM): watching the stars and talking about our semi-trival things we have a tendency of doing
HD (12:41:49 PM): i could actually smell you, it was so real
HD (12:42:06 PM): the feel of your body just laying next to mine was amazing
HD (12:42:31 PM): (mind you that we didn't kiss or touch at all, just being content with each other)
HD (12:43:10 PM): so after a while of talking i look into your amazing eyes and get lost
HD (12:43:17 PM): *POOF*, HD wakes up
HD (12:43:23 PM): *Sigh*
HD (12:43:38 PM): the only thing i could do was sigh and groan
HD (12:43:45 PM): sounds like a date to you?
------------------------

*huge grin* If there is ever a time to feel warm and cuddly inside, that time is now. He's just too sweet and too romantic, and just too freakin perfect, I don't know how I ended up this fortunate. I can't wait to see him...

 

[lil_loser]

asshat

I'm such an ass. I woke up an extra hour than usual, and thought I was a half an hour late, so I ran around like a chicken with its head cut off. Yup. So I was completely ready by 10 after 10 this morning, and dont leave the house until 11:10. A whole hour later! Man alive, I can be such an idiot some times. An extra hour of sleep would have been so amazingly good though...I didn't go to bed until 6...

Beginning of the work week for me *yippy*. But no big holidays coming up...I don't think, so this week should be decent. Here's hoping, anyway. I need to buy something to be able to make a scrap book with, and I need to buy a computer microphone. Hopefully, I'll remember today, if not, then they'll get bought on Sunday - when someone else will remind me.

I guess I should eat my breakfast and go to work then. Toodles.

 

[lil_loser]

just me being a happy gushing girl

I wonder if anyone can notice a difference in my demeaner. Do I give off the same vibes as before, or are my vibes full of more life and spirit - in other words, are they *happy* vibes? No one needs to know the reason why of course, but there in lies the question - Can they tell? I don't want anyone to be able to tell...it's a secret that *needs* to be kept a secret.

It's hard though, when I want to shout out to the world just how disgustingly happy I am. *smiles* Very hard indeed. I'm head-over-heels ga-ga for this guy, and I have to keep completely silent about it. I was never completely silent with The Guy - not in your face about it, 'cuz I'm not in your face with my life, but you knew we were seeing one another - but now I have to be *COMPLETELY* silent. Not allowed to utter a word to anyone(having this journal, is such a great spot to release all this pent up emotions I can't share with anyone else). But I am glad that I told my Chica and my Lil Chica, or there would just be no possible way I could keep my mouth shut.

And *GOD!*, how I just want to kiss him! Over and over, again and again, everywhere. I look at him, and think to myself, "I can't", because he has to first. I'm not rushing in on his boundries or anything. But now it's even worse than when we were just friends, 'cuz then I knew I couldn't - off limits - but now I *could* if he *would*. Our conversation last night made me feel really special, and loved, and raised the 'ol self-esteem, quite a bit, I must say. I only want to share a tid bit though...

"...then I would want to kiss you as soon as we left work, and got to work, and *at* work, and whenever I see you or are near you. Kissing and kissing and kissing you...would be *so*...amazing."

...Soon...

 

[lil_loser]

Work Scandal *ooooOOOOoo*

Well well well, shame on you Mr. Assistant Manager Man. *shakes head in disgust*. You're married, with how many...3?... kids and you go off and have a lil work fling with one of your employees! I just feel sorry for your wife - she should throw your cheating ass out.

but yeah, that's what happened this week. One of our assistant managers was somehow caught having fun with one of his over nights associates, and now both of them are gone. Which makes perfect sense to me - they were fooling around *at work* - he's married, and jeez, they should just know better. But that's just me. What do I know...*rolls eyes*.

So, now we're getting a new overnights assistant manager - a lady - and we're going to be getting a new regular assistant manager because one of ours is leaving for maternity leave in less than a month. 2 new managers in a row! Boom-shaka-laka. I just hope non of them are like this one guy we used to have...that's the one the Skanky Ho is seeing now....yeah, he's an asshole. So as long as we don't get anyone like *that* I think things will turn out ok.

However, because of this whole incident, all the supervisors are going to be having a meeting with the store manager. Joy. And because I'm a supervisor, I'm involved in the meeting. Note: no, I don't think I'm a hypocrite for going out with HD and then completely ranting about my Assistant Manager Man. (1) I am not HD's manager/supervisor, just a fellow worker(that is, I'm not a salaried manager) and (2) we are both single people, i.e. NOT MARRIED. yeah, that's right, so no guilty feelings from *ME* - end freakin' note, dammit. I'm not supposed to hang out with my co-workers outside of work. Not supposed to talk to them, get in contact with them, nothing. It's funny, or sad, however you want to put it, but all of my friends are from my job. Either that, or they are my brothers friends. And even funnier, all of his friends used to work there too! Nurm was in foods/photo and both Danimal and Imm used to work in photo. I didn't meet them through work, I've known them all much longer than my job has been(my brothers friends), but it seems to be a gathering ground. Yeah, all but Mateo have worked for the big W.
Out of my friends, Chica and I knew one another prior too, but she's the only one. HD, Timmmmmmmmmy!, Em, LiR Lisa and anyone else I've talked about have all become my friends via work. And now they are telling me - well, this was always how it was supposed to be, but now they are *enforcing* - me to not spend time with all these people that I care about.

True, I only hang out with 2 of all that I've mentioned. But that's because those two are the most important to me, and I really don't like to have a lot of "aquaintaince" friends. So I keep the other friendships inside work. It's less hassle when only dealing with a few people - as bitter as I'm sure that sounds - and I already know how things are when I'm with those two. I don't know, I just don't want to change all that I alraedy have. It doesn't sound like alot to most people, I'm sure, but I don't need a lot to be happy. Anyhooooo....they are going to be cracking down on CSM's and supervisors hanging out with cashiers, but I don't really think that is going to effect me too much. They already know that Chica is one of my best friends - as we knew one another before she joined the 'club'. And they have a fairly good idea - unless they are amazingly dense - that HD is also a very good friend of mine, as we have lunch together every day he works. LiR Lisa and Skanky ho are the ones that are going to have to keep their little "ghost expeditions" on the D/L, because they go out in huge groups with a whole bunch of people that work there - where as I've got two. I'll probably be over-looked, because they are more concerned with a huge group than they are with my tiny one.

Here's hoping, right?

Man, I'm out of it! I'm waiting for a call, and there is a piece of chicken in the fridge that's calling my name - and a frying pan, cuz that bad boy needs to be cooked! - so I'm gonna munch on that and get ready for beddy. Night all.

 

[lil_loser]

catty women

I'm eating yogurt from February. Is that bad? I mean, it's not as bad as the yogurt I ate the other day...that was from October 30th, 2002. I didn't get sick from that, but that wasn't fruit on the bottom, so I wonder if maybe having the fruit is more dangerous???? I guess I'll find out tomorrow, if I'm violently ill.

It tastes the same...

Devils won, good job guys. Home ice advantage, *woo-ooo* Quack? Quack?? What??? I can't hear yoooooouuu... *does a little dance*

Today was a good day. Really, really, REALLY slow, so it pretty much dragged, and then there was the relationship drama between Mr. Motorcycle and Ghetto Booty and of course Lir Lisa has to drag herself into the whole mess...but still a good day. I've decided I don't want to be apart of there shabazz. I'm not a dramatic person, and thusly do not wish to be involved in any of this.

Ghetto Booty needs to move on with the whole 'love of [her] life' thing with Mr. Motorcycle as he does not care for her as anything more so than a friend. But *GOD FORBID* he goes out with one of Ms. Bootys' friends...she gets all possessive over the NOTHING that they have. Why get all worked up over something that you can't change, because you can't change the way a person feels towards you - most of the time - and being jealous is certainly not going to change it for the better anyway. If anything, it'll make things worse between the two - as it already is - and nothing will *ever* come out of it all, even a lasting friendship. Like, right now, the three I mentioned are all in this one huge argument because 'Gets Around', who is a friend of Ghetto Booty's, happens to also like Mr. Motorcycle - but the feeling is mutual this time. LiR Lisa and Ghetto Booty are pissed off at 'Gets Around' AND Mr. Motorcycle because they think Gets Around' isnt' good enough for Mr. M - which to me, why should it really matter what they think at all? - but they are making his life a living hell by giving him guilt trips, and glares, and just being catty with 'Gets Around'. Grow up already, ladies. This sounds like something from a "cosmo" magazine - My Crush Likes my Best Friend!!!. *rolls eyes* Grin, bear it, move on and be happy for your friend. Catty women....not my bag, baby.

....I'm cold. Everything is grande with HD and I. He's going away for a few days...and then he's back for a week, and then gone for a while, and then back, and then gone AGAIN...I can't wait for summer to be half over, when he STOPS leaving me for graduations and picnics, and we can be together all the time. That would be nice. Yeah....

G'night

 

[lil_loser]

I'm making a list

Neck
Fingers
Thumb
Nose
Forehead
Cheek(s)
Ear
Eyelid

Lips? = no

 

[lil_loser]

blah blah blah

I'm wearing a low cut top, and it's "hello boobs, what'cha knowin'?". I don't normally wear low cut attire, not on a daily basis, and I'm thinking of playing pool tonight, so I'll probably change - I'm way too self-conscience, and the whole idea of flashing HD - as much fun as that would be - just doesn't seem like a good one.

But I don't know just yet. I look damn cute, and it'd be a shame to change...Hopefully, it's a nice night out, and we'll just go for one of our "walks"(walk a few paces, sit and snuggle, walk a few paces...you get the idea. I really like our walks ) But if it rains, I doubt we'll be going for a walk. I honestly don't care what we do, as long as I can be near him.

*blegh* you ever taste deodorant? It's really interesting, I suggest you give it a go - kinda gives you cotton mouth though, be forewarned. And I wouldnt' suggest licking your armpit, you know, unless you want to *heh* But yeah, tasty deodorant

The weather has actually been really nice, for a change. Usually, it's raining. But now it is starting to feel like summer and I think it is here to stay, finally. Oven House is baking my brother and I alive - soon we'll have to set up the AC. This house is amazing - unbearibly hot during the summer, unbelievably cold during the winter. How it does it is a mystery to me, but it does it well. Onward Oven House, I'm still not sweating!

 

[lil_loser]

prom...

...and condoms were bought a-plenty. Hey, better safe than pregnant, I suppose. 'Course, if you were *me*, you went to prom with a gay guy, and had nothing to worry about at all. *nods* But that was years ago...Ah, memories...

But on that prom note, we had no cashiers. So I was running around like a loon and getting yelled at by impatient people and pretty much hiding in a corner talking on the phone with HD. My little peace and tranquility was our lunch break...An hour of freedom away from the store and wandering eyes and just some time for *us* with no worries. *inhales* yeah, no worries.

I took out my earrings today. They give off that weird funk, that only goes away if you buy bone or wooden barbells(something to absorb the odor/moisture), so I decided I'd rather have empty ears than smelly ones. Now I just have to wait for the holes to close. Thankfully, I never stretched them to unholy lengths (ick) and 12G is as little as they are. Shouldn't take too long to shrink. I kinda miss them, but...I'm trying something new. It's not just for my sake, of course. It's for my HD too I don't want him to be kissing my neck and come upon my funky smelling ears *shudder*. It'd be pretty funny though. But yeah, I left my cartlidge in. It's a 10G, and hurt like a bitch to get done (I did it myself *stands up proud*) and it looks really cute. So why change soemthing that's cute? That and it doesn't smell *sour*. Cute and pleasant smelling? *CHA-CHING!!!*:up:

I feel almost lop-sided without them.

I need to write an email and sleep, I'm exhausted. Night all.

 

[lil_loser]

finally!

Wow, I don't update in 3 days, I come back, and everything has changed. I must say, the new look does look rather spiffy. However, I'm not all that huge a fan of change, and witht the old look I knew what to expect, and what not to. However, this *does* have much more visual appeal. Maybe I'm reading too much into this? Most likely. I'll shut up about all of this now...

My vacation starts this week. So I won't be working this Friday or Saturday. Looking VERY forward to that. Especially since HD has one of his friends graduations to go to, which is pretty far away, so I won't be seeing him on Friday or Saturday(which is a good thing I dont work those days, or I'd be mopey as all hell thinking about him).

:love: I got to be with him tonight though. From 11 O'Clock onward. We played pool and just got to spend time together. Ahhh, I'm so content now, it's disgusting. Especially now, because we shared our first kiss tonight. FINALLY! An actual kiss, not just a peck on the cheek or neck *silly grin* He's the first person that I've ever kissed that I feel completely at ease with. 'Cuz I'm such a backwards nut, I like to believe the person I'm seeing as the person I'm going to marry, so getting to know him *completely* as a friend, before ever getting romantically involved, wow, just made everything perfect. Yeah yeah yeah life is grande.

 

[lil_loser]

My "Surprise"

I haven't had much to say as of late, other than the same usual-ness that is my life. Boring for the rest of the world, complete and utter contentment for myself. Except the next couple of days are going to be even duller for myself than usual.

I'm on vacation this Friday and Saturday - which is nice. And HD is away for the weekend starting today - Thursday - so I really haven't got any plans. That, and my other friends are working as well, so I can't make plans with them either. Not that I would, I'm not really a 'The initiator of plans'. No. So I'll probably have a relaxing weeked alone.

Oh.

Now that I think about it, the "Atta Boy" party that was post-poned - remember? from quite 2 Saturdays ago? - might happen this Saturday. That's all up to my brother. This Sat. would be the best one to have it on, as everyone is free, and I'm free, and it would just work that much more smoothly than last time. However, I think it's going to rain this weekend - like everyother. So I'm still not sure how this is going to work. Maybe we'll have it next weekend. *shrugs* Anyhoo, I'll letcha know if the party went down or not. It would give me something to do for the weekend, so I'm really hoping it does happen. If not, I'll be reading or lounging in the sun(dammit sun! You better come out!!!)

I got a ring from HD yesterday. It's something really sweet, and really sentimental, *and* something I can wear at work that no one will think anything of. I'm a sentimental fool, but so is he, so *shrugs* match made in heaven, eh?
Well, because of where he works(accounting), he is able to get a bunch of silver dimes and quarters and just really unique/foreign change. He's been givng them to me for over a year now, even before we were really close friends, just "work friends". It was always something nice, and random, and just brightens my mood. Gosh, you would not believe how much change I have that I won't use, 'cuz it's silver or from another country Thankfully, it has it's own spot in my room. ANYWAY - God, I ramble way too much....

Yeah, so about a month ago, I found a silver dime, and figured I would return the favor. I had no idea though that he had taken the dime that I had given him and carved the inside out...thusly making it into a ring. It's so perfect though, it still has the ridges on the side of the dime, and still says some of the word-age on the inner part of the dime(I can see "Liberty" and half of "One Dime"). But to everyone else, it will just look like a regular ring. So I can wear it, always. Oooooo, and what's even sweeter, he is going to make one for himself out of a quarter(a dime would just be a wee bit too small, emphsise on the 'wee')!! *heh* My sister saw it today, and was just in awe. Gosh, I'm so lucky.

 

[lil_loser]

weather

Tonight: Cloudy with rain likely. A thundershower is possible as well, especially early. Thunder possible. Chance of rain 80%. Rainfall may reach one inch.
Tomorrow: Periods of rain. Thunder possible. Chance of rain 70%. Rainfall near a half an inch.
Tomorrow night: Overcast with rain showers at times. Chance of rain 60%. Rainfall near a quarter of an inch.
Sunday: Showers early becoming less numerous later in the day. Chance of rain 50%.

Low, and freakin' behold, MONDAY​

Monday: Mostly sunny. Highs in the upper 80s and lows in the low 60s....I'll be at work...

I'm so sick of the rain. All it does is rain, day in day out, 24/7. I go to bed, it's raining, I wake up, it's raining. I swore and shook my fists to the Gods this morning...they replied by pelting me in the face and fogging my glasses with rain rain rain rain rain. I can't stand it anymore. It'll be summer, in what, one? Two more days??? It doesn't even feel like it's hit spring yet. Usually, I'm a fairly cheery person...but this rain...it just, completely sucked out my joy. Completely.

I just want to go outside, and lay in the sun! Just sit in the sun and read, play, take a walk(!) without getting soaked. I want to take a walk with HD, and not have to fear that there is going to be a downpour(like *last* time) or thunderstorm...I just want it to stop. Just stop.
I sound like a broken record.

 

[lil_loser]

lonesome and bored

We've got people over for some boxing match on HBO, I think. *shrugs* I don't really follow sports, as it is, but all the guys are on their way over, so I assume it's something good. Whatever.

God, I'm soooooo lonely! HD's been away for his friends' college graduation, and he's only been gone 3 days but *YEEEEEEESH!* I miss him so much. And I won't see him tomorrow, either, because that's the 'welcoming home' party, so he has off for work, and I *have* to work.
And the weather is still cruddy.
And it's making my mood even fouler.
AND WHO THE HELL IS SMOKING IN MY HOUSE!!!!

CLOSE THE FUCKING DOOR IF YOU'RE GOING TO SMOKE, JESUS CHRIST!!!!!

*deep breathe*

2 more days, 2 more days, 2 more days = no rain, HD+me time.
The longest 2 days ever :mope:

 

[lil_loser]

boxing results! don't read if you don't want to know...

Gosh, I know why I don't like boxing *shudder* Lewis is a prick, the other guy(Klitchko? my spelling is horrible) should have won. Definetly. Sorry if I ruined this for anyone that has yet to see the fight. *shrugs* I just don't figure many men - or ladies who are interested in sports - read my journal anyway, but sorry if I did. *ugh* I just can't watch boxing anyway, *ick* it's just horrible that people can beat the shit out of one another and not think any thing of it. "It's only a game"...it's horrible. (De La Hoya is very attractive though? Hmm?? *heh* I just saw a commercial with him in it...*heh*)

But yeah, that was that. I think I'm going to start Harry Potter tonight. It took 3 different stores for me to find it, and I have yet to even begin. I'm so excited though something to look forward to on this crumby weekend. It'll keep my mind off of him, anyway. 'Course, I'll be at work tomorrow too, but on my breaks you know what I'll be doing

Yeah, going to my room now. Have a good night, all. Pray with me that the weather clears up on Monday!!

 

[lil_loser]

mmmmmmonday

*cheers!* Tomorrow is Monday I am so thankful and oooo, just so happy - I'm gushing joy. GUSHING! I get to see my guy(mmm, and smell him - the whole nearness thing...I never realized how much I need that!) and then we get to see more of one another at night. *heheh* Happy Yo-Yo I am.

I'm listening to a CD he gave me...Frank Sinatra??? *smiles* Old skool :love: Awwwwwww.

*~*WORK*~*

Oooooooooo, I got yelled at today by an irate customer. I wouldn't pull another cashier out of my ass. *nods* yeah, lacking common sense... :tsk: If I haven't opened one by now, it's just not going to happen, so don't ask. But anyhoo, it really wasn't all that bad. He didn't swear, or throw a coniption(sp?) fit. And I told him, I didn't have people, as I said, I can't pull any out of my ass, as surprising as I'm sure that sounds. He asked me to hire more people....
And what's even funnier, currently we are on a hiring stand-still. For what reason, I know not. But that's how it goes. Today would have been better if a couple that were on the schedule would have shown up, but what can you do? Work with whatcha got, right? Right.

I am...so positive. Zen-like; it's scary. *heh* Well, so long as you don't read any past entries. *wooooooo* Yeah, I got some major mood swings going. Nothing horrendously bad though. If you met me, you would be in awe of my peace and tranquility *smiles* Well, maybe a little.

Pleasant dreams, all.

 

[lil_loser]

pubes??? wha!?

Vacation again *heh*. Life is swell. And my HD isn't going to be gone from me this week, like he was last week, so life is even sweller(I get to see him Wednesday and Thursday). I just got home from being with him, actually. We layed on the hammock and looked at the stars. Well, for about 5 minutes of the 2 and a half hours we were out there. The rest of the time was spent talking and kissing and laughing. And keeping one another warm! It got quite chilly out. But yeah, went for a walk, then snuggled on the hammock for the remainder of the eve.

*content sigh* I didn't want to leave. But hey, here I am, so we all know how that turned out.

*yawn* I'm really sleepy. It's been quite a day. No irate customers, and everything pretty much went smoothly. As per usual for a Monday. So no complaints for me, or about me. I'm pretty hungry though. I ate a half of a half of a bagel today, and a bunch of gummi worms. That's about it. Unfortunate. So my stomach is yelling at me. But there is really nothing I want to eat at home - Gods, I have to go shopping! - so I'll probably just end up going to bed on this nearly empty stomach. Unfortunate again.

House dilemma. My tub is all backed up. I had to buy "Liquid Plumber" today, so hopefully that will send whatever kind of scuzz that's blocking up my tubby down to its demise. I honestly don't know what's the problem with it, I just know that I'm standing in about 3 inches of water when I take a shower...what's up with that??? So, currently I'm
"letting it sit for one hour" then
"washing it down the drain"
It's probably clogged by my pube hairs *rolls eyes*, 'cuz I know i'm not shoving other shit down there. That, and I get lazy with the shaving - yeah, shutup, you know you do too - so I can understand if it gets clogged *nods*. *heh*, nah, it's probably just the wrapper from the bar soap. Whatever it is, Liquid Plumber to the rescue!

*mmmmmm* PB&J sandwiches...I haven't had one of these in about 4/5 years. Mom used to send me off to grade school with one of these everyday for about 2 years straight. I got so sick of them. Then she switched it over to ham&cheese, for 3 years, til I got sick of them. Then it was bagels and cream cheese.

Then I stopped eating lunch

Oooooooh mom and her crazy kicks! If you tell her you like one kind of cereal, she buys 4 boxes of it, and you no longer like it. Overkill, that's what it is. That, and she always buys in bulk. Egads, BJ's will not go out of business if you don't buy the bulk waffles (although, waffles are quite delicious...).

Pretty beat now, it almost 5:30AM, night all, pleasant dreams.

 

[lil_loser]

Liquid Plumber works like a charm. No longer am I standing in my own puddle of filth while i shower, now my filth runs freely down the pipe. I'm in debt to this "plumber" man.

 

[lil_loser]

long day

Oooooo, finally, a nice day where I didn't have to work! Got some uber tannation, kinda almost passed out from the sun exposure *whoopsie* So had to get some water quick and lay in front of the A/C. But other than that little mishap, the sun was grande.

And I went food shopping today. Haven't done that in over 2 monthes - seriously! - so I was completely out of any good food. We had a bunch of crap - canned foods, crackers, BLAH - so it's nice to actually see some fresh vegetables and fruit, as well as lunch meats. Yummy. That, and I was able to spend some quality time with mom, talking about my life, as her about hers. We don't really have that as much as we used to. So it's really nice to be able to chat about the on-goings of everything. Even better, she used to be full of rage against me *nods* but now that we don't see one another as much as we used to, all she has is love...or atleast an understanding that I'm an ass. Either way, I'll take it.

Danimal is over. Nothing new there. He and my brother are working together now. So pretty much, I see Danimal when I wake up, and when I go to bed. My bro sees him, well, 24/7. I can only imagine it now, Danimal suggesting he just sleep over and they can carpool in the morning *laughs* I wonder how high N's tolerance is for his best buddy???

Oooo, i forgot to mention last night, about work. You know how I mentioned there were no irate customer? Well, let me tell you, I would rather have had the irate customer than the drunk 40 year old hitting on me. Oh and was he drunk! The cashier could smell it on him. Quite creepy. And to make matters worse, I didn't know at the time he was drunk, I just thought he was a creepy guy. Til he asked:
"Hey, you look pretty important, standing back there in the red".
ME: "Yeah, I kinda am."
HIM: Well, you know what important people do, they go out with us. You want to go out with me?(no fucking lie, he said this)
ME: *laughing* I really don't think so.
HIM: What? you think you're too good for me?

Thank GOD HD made a call for me. He didn't even know it, but he saved me('course, I told him about it all later). I didn't catch the rest of what the guy said, as I was on the phone, but the cashier - who was lucky he was a guy - said it was stupid jokes ("Where's the lawn&garden dept, I need some cheap hoes *smile-smile*") and more comments about me. Oooooo, I hate assholes. I just had to get that off my chest. I feel much better *inhales*

It's not even 11 O'clock yet....long day