Yin-Yang

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Yin-Yang : Probably the best way to describe myself, probably the best way to describe anyone. A dichotomy of good/bad, strenght/weakness. But yin-yang is more than that, it depicts how in every strengh, there is a weakness and in every weakness....there is a strenght. As I add to this journal and you read it, maybe this will become clear. Anyway back to myself .

Fact 1 : I work at a Cyber Cafe
Fact 2 : I love my Job and it affects my entire life
Fact 3 : I'm so lazy, that i still want to ring up sick some days
Fact 4 : I live with a few cool people, including my dad
Fact 5 : I'm single
Fact 6 : I have a great buch of Friends
Fact 7 : I love my family and we get on well
Fact 8 : I am too lazy to finish this entry .... the end.

 

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Old thoughts make new people

Recurring theme ..... i'm too lazy. So instead or writing something new, I'm post an old diary entry. I wrote this while at University. Makes me laugh to read about my stupidity and a little sad.
Here Starts the entry(un-edited) :-

I know i was supposed to keep thi s diary going, and if i was still smoking drugs i would.I ran out a long time ago.
I have to resort to using alcohol which i don't prefer so much. I do slightly socailly unacceptable things when really drunk,
and if everyone else is
sober then it is a fopar.
Maybe i should think of a cool quote or two like my last entry
It was my birthday yesterday. Got an exam tommorrow haven't started to study yet it's 4:23...shit......happens...to other
people. Found an old note of mine, it prompted me to type it up for prosperity and add to the diary..Later
Fucked up the other day got drunk told christophe to reveal the truth to joe. The next day he told me off, i am sorry he felt
bad about it, but i had to say something . What i did was right , not always popular but right none the same....
Talked to hayden that night about his DATE?
have redo that talk i forgot it!

the note:

Unfortunatly i have had an urge to write my thoughts down. First thing is girls, one thing my life lacks and every now and
then it rears up and makes me feel like shit.

I have to admit sex is a big draw card , but when i think about it , i would much prefer a companion. A mix between my
friends and a ... for lack o a better word....women. Some one i could do things with, who would inspire, empower and excite me.

I've found though out my life that i can enjoy anything, which i can share with my friends. i believe this would follow
into any relationship i had. I would find myself doing stuff just cause i would be doing it with her.

Which brings me to the point, how will i know "her". Hopefully it will be cosmic, each struck speachless. Although i have a
sneaky suspision that we will know each other and will not realise our connection for a while, i don't mind.

:Here ends the note

the paper is old and yellowed, probably written last year, i will fold it up and store it, maybe i will find it in 5 years

-: Here Ends the entry

Every now and again I find things like this. Screwed up in a draw, stashed on an old disk or just a memory invoked by some random event. Makes you think. One day, deep into the future I may rediscover this journal. Hope I make it worth reading. Anyway... To my future self - Hi mate, for my sake I hope things are going well, say hi to dad and kiss mum for me.

 

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The Sickness

Damn, I'm sick. Some kind of biological weapon must have been detonated in my house. 3 days ago, one of my flatmate fell dreadfully ill. He's still in bed; not much consolation for everyone else in the flat; now we are all infected by what must be a new mix of "the plague" and "the anthrax". Maybe it was those god damned terrorists. Sending out suicide soldiers armed with a flu and a box of tissues. Maybe the CIA will discorver the vector leads right to our house. Fire bomb us with napalm and put us out of our misery. PLEASE.

 

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Lazy Mans Entry

I'm still sick and it is by far the most chronic flu I have ever had. The last nights have been plagued by fever dreams, last night I was a physicist inventing the largest egg shaped device ever, to absorb all other egg shaped solids. Very disturbing. Caused me to wake every 30 minutes. I think it has to do with my current reading material "Yu Chi Chan" by Mao Tse-tung. Its a chinese book on guerrilla warfare. The dreams definitly had a chinese, swamps and jungles feel to it. Maybe I should Delay reading Che Guevara's Guerrilla Warfare Handbook. Before you get the wrong impression about me based on my reading material. Don't. I read a wide variety of books and have only recently become interested in war oriented literature. "The War of the Rats" is my favourite so far, it is the book that the movie "Enemy at the Gates" is based on. Gee and I thought I was going to be Lazy and post another old journal entry. Guess I'll save it for next time.