first day of Joseph
Lovely day. Smiles and sunshine and rainbows. At least at school. My grades are lower than they have ever been, but I refused to let it bother me today. I arrived at school angry and upset and generally pissed off, only to see Lee! My chorus singing buddy from last year who graduated. He put me in a wonderful mood. He's just such a goofy, nice guy.
Then afterschool, it was the first day of auditions for Joseph and the Technicolor dreamcoat at my school. And as asst. director I got to watch. I was given the job of timing them and when a minute rolled by I stood up so they knew to end at the end of whatever phrase they were on. So all the auditioners were watching me as they sang. Song after song, seemingly just sung for me. It was enough to inflate anyones sense of wellbeing. Fun fun in the sun, except we were inside so not technically in the sun. Awesome.
And then yesterday. The nightmare of schooldays which informed me that I was going to recieve my first C and not just one but 2 or 3. I still think I'll have a 4.0 or thereabouts bc they are in AP and honors classes, but still. A C is a C. And it was crushing for me. I just need to work. I'm smart I know I am, I just got senior slack a year early. Anyway, this awful day was interspersed with the fun event of being in a video for the videography class. I was one of several girls who rejected the loser main character. It was my friend Ben and it was funny, especially when he said "I know this is fake...but I think this may start to have a negative effect on my self-esteem.
And my sunshine rainbowy day as always ended abruptly when I got home. Then it clouded over a little...more than a little actually. My parents are being their usual psychotic selves. My mom's having surgery again too. She was reminding me of the day she was having surgery "remember that I'm having surgery this day", only I didn't remember bc she never told me. My response "surgery, whos having sugery? On what? Since when? why?"
Ack. It's muddy outside. Metaphorically...if that makes sense.
Lovely day. Smiles and sunshine and rainbows. At least at school. My grades are lower than they have ever been, but I refused to let it bother me today. I arrived at school angry and upset and generally pissed off, only to see Lee! My chorus singing buddy from last year who graduated. He put me in a wonderful mood. He's just such a goofy, nice guy.
Then afterschool, it was the first day of auditions for Joseph and the Technicolor dreamcoat at my school. And as asst. director I got to watch. I was given the job of timing them and when a minute rolled by I stood up so they knew to end at the end of whatever phrase they were on. So all the auditioners were watching me as they sang. Song after song, seemingly just sung for me. It was enough to inflate anyones sense of wellbeing. Fun fun in the sun, except we were inside so not technically in the sun. Awesome.
And then yesterday. The nightmare of schooldays which informed me that I was going to recieve my first C and not just one but 2 or 3. I still think I'll have a 4.0 or thereabouts bc they are in AP and honors classes, but still. A C is a C. And it was crushing for me. I just need to work. I'm smart I know I am, I just got senior slack a year early. Anyway, this awful day was interspersed with the fun event of being in a video for the videography class. I was one of several girls who rejected the loser main character. It was my friend Ben and it was funny, especially when he said "I know this is fake...but I think this may start to have a negative effect on my self-esteem.
And my sunshine rainbowy day as always ended abruptly when I got home. Then it clouded over a little...more than a little actually. My parents are being their usual psychotic selves. My mom's having surgery again too. She was reminding me of the day she was having surgery "remember that I'm having surgery this day", only I didn't remember bc she never told me. My response "surgery, whos having sugery? On what? Since when? why?"
Ack. It's muddy outside. Metaphorically...if that makes sense.