Taking A Step To The Right

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walked out

i had never walked out before a show. in the three years i have done improv, i have never walked out and not done the show.

i had to. even if i was the only one. i had to. he is my brother and when an injustice happens, i will stand with him until death.

me and some other people told the manager of quickwits, "adam plays, or we walk." and he let us walk. he did not give a damn about the other actors. he never has. but then right about when we were going to leave heather frank says wait. this can be fixed. it couldnt. and for the first time and the last time ever, i said goodbye to quickwits.

i walked every inch. i looked at every piece of something i could. i talked to the stage and thanked it. i feel at peace with it. i stood at the center and i thanked the seats, and the every person that had ever seen me play. it felt really good to leave the stage like that.

now more then ever i am getting nervous about OBT. i wonder if the people will be cool. if the stage will be my next home. i never know. but i can guarentee(?) that i will go and have fun. and make people laugh.

tonight is decemperprov. it will be fun. if i make it there. i have court and a job orientation today. i might just go to court and not comeback for awhile. lets hope not! the plan at DP is to play with my brother and adam. and austin and adam. it will rock.

well until we meet again. Ill be your huckleberry.




if you fall down. dont get up right away. sit there and think about it. store it in your mind. because before we get back up, we have to live in our experiences. and respect them.

 

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we rocked

so at decemberprov me and my brother and adam did something really cool that my brother came up with called three man monoluges. it is were each of three actors gives a monoluge in a character and then two scenes follow with that character. then new monoluge followed until all three actors do a scene with each other as the character.

we tore it up. we had the crowd at our feet laughing and following us until we were finished. i am really proud of bobo because he came up with something that really worked.

then me adam and austin did a montage and we blew our load in the first scene. it was ok after but the first one was the best.

we had a blast and that night rocked. im glad it happened like it did. AWESOME.





if you slow down life it gets easier. its when we are running through it that we miss the important things.

 

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make it better, not more

now that my life has slowed down i have thought about things that i could do to make it funner.

but, then i thought why not make everything in my life now better. for instance, at work i will work my ass off, i will make sure that i do everything fast and effective.

then at bountiful i can try to just make every show there the best it can be. if people dont come, oh well. next would be OBT. i will go there and just run my game the way i have learned how to.

and last, i want to make all my friendships better. i mean all of my friends i want to be a better person and try to make their life a little better. not to mention my bestfriend. i think lately he is just drifting further away. i dont fit in in his troupe because i was their age once and i really didnt like the way it happened. hey seems to have found a great girl. for him i am so happy. he needs something like that. and i am glad it is her. but he just doesnt talk to me a lot. at a party he didnt even say one word to me. he sat in a whole other room and just sat with the younger kids and it hurt a little. then later for some reason he was pissed and i just added to it. i know he still is my friend, but with him going further to the troupe he has made, he gets further from me. and i am selfish god dammit.

everything in my life will become better. i will not add more. i will just make it better.

WE STILL COULD RULE THE WORLD!






when i stop and think about all the places i have been, i just missed a few i could went to.

 

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no home

i feel improv homeless.

man the biggest bummer was that the OBT was less then i expected. i get two shows in the next two months. sucks huh. YEAH! i will though have the best two shows i have ever had. and i will show them that they will schedule me more. ill prove it!

but still dont have a home.......................

bountiful is looking good after last week. but it was only one week. so we will see this week. its not really a home. i mean it is a place to do improv. and it still it is our place. as i find out it doesnt want to be our house. and i can say that sure it will suck, but dont be dumb. it will be what i make it. and we will leave it at that.

but i still dont have a home.....................

the way i see it, if i cant find a place that i feel as a home, well then i will make whatever i have at the time a home. so that means bountiful has just become my home. now i can finally take off my shoes and lie down.

i think that i will take a shower! if you come by, i left a key under the mat for you. come in, dont be dumb.









at first you just close them to take a load off, but then you slowly feel that wave come over you. you give up and then do it everyday. WE GIVE UP EVERYDAY. the good thing is it is only sleep.

 

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Alright

so last night i played my very first show ever at OBT. Well its the second after the new years eve thing i did. but it is my first real show. I knocked it out. i had the crowd yelling my name at the end. i just brought the thunder like i new that i could. i wasnt nervous, i wasnt scared, and i wasnt off. i brought everything i could. my line games were on. my team games were on, hell even my pantamimes were great.

after the show a guy named eric jensen talked to me. i believe he is half owner of obt and also emceed the show. he told me that usually they work new guys in. thats the reason for the two shows. but since i worked it that he believes i am one of the ELITES. FUCK YEAH!!

so the bountiful show was cancelled friday because we had too few people. it was my job to schedule but i couldnt get more then 3 people. oh well. i tried.

my next show at OBT is feb 21. i cant wait. i will show them that i am one of the greatest short form imprrovisers in utah.




the easiest way to live life is to earn your own respect everyday. that way you always feel good about you.

 

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Moving in

so i was mindin my own bussiness, sitting and thinking how i was going to do more improv then a show every friday. when mike brown from OBT sent me a message asking me to play some shows this weekend at the Groove.

Thursday, friday, and saturday. thursday was ok with only about 30 people. but i heard they have already booked over 60 for each day. the theatre is way nice. it is a dinner theatre. it has chairs and tables, but at the shows we are doing they can only order snacks. the stage is raised up and it is wonderful.

when mike called me he told me that i was scheduled because all the actors thought i was very good. one of the best they have seen in a long time. This makes me feel so good. they are so awesome there. they KNOW how to run a place, and treat their actors. but i hear that i got scheduled because of their liking to me. out of all their actors they scheduled me! ME!

adam is quitting bountiful. it sucks, but i cant hold it against him. he has some other important things in his life. he finally is dating a girl i think fits him. really good. he is my brother and could never let me down. so no worries. i know that he has great intentions. his hearts not in it. for me to get mad would be like getting mad at a sponge for not picking up anymore water. NO WORRIES BROTHER.




you can steal from me, you can murder me, you can hurt me physically, but never ever lie to me.

 

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and then there was one................

i would tell her that i had to do the shows because i loved performing for the crowd. so we would grab a bite to eat, and it was never a place i should have been taking her, it was always a fast food joint on the way. we would spend the whole weekend there and she would get nothing to show for it. man, i thought it would never ever end. it did.

just like every thing i do, i let it fizzle out. my basketball, my schooling, and now my performing. there is only two places i would be able to play and i dont have a car for one, and the other just cant bite on the bait i threw out. so i am left with one show in the next three months, and i feel like improv is something that i have lost my grip on.

just two months ago i was feeling like a champ. but now i feel as if i have every thing i really need now. i have money for the bills, i have my baby, and i have the guy i would hang out with all day in my brother, but i have no improv. Friends are harder to see, so now i feel like i live in a hole with these two people and all the guys i cared about are forever away. i miss them.

for now i will live the thing called life and maybe one day i will make it big and all my friends will live with me forever.





whats living life to its fullest? im not sure, so ill be back after living some and tell you.

 

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no more

there is no improv.

there is no scene.

i think that i have realized what i did improv for. just like classes i take to help other things, improv helped me live life. i am quicker. i take chances. i also work with the other players and i feel i am starting to acutally help people.

that was something i always promised myself is that one day i would leave this world saying to myself that i helped every single person i could.

i miss everyone. i miss you guys. i miss dennys, i miss pauls house, i miss you friend. in a bad way. i have a heavy sadness in my heart, and i know you guys could fix it, but life is......... ya know life.

i love the utah improv scene. in case of me never posting again, THANK YOU UTAH IMPROV. I LOVE YOU.



the end is always a beginning, you just have to see it.


steve uribe