I have no idea what's going on with me but . . .
I'm involved in a bunch of practice groups and I'm at a point where I'm becoming super anal about rules - but not in so far as they can't be broken - just basic rules (ie. not destroying established realities, build off of what partner gives you . . . )
As Viola Spolin defines in her book (Improvisation for the Theater) - playing constitutes that the participants involved accept the rules and play within those rules - a game isn't fun if there aren't any boundaries to work around - but it's only a game if those boundaries are accepted by all players. (this is neither a paraphrase nor a quote; just the jist of what I can remember)
I feel I'm so anal about the rules because I really need them at this point - and I feel strongly about not breaking them until I really know them well.
I've been told that if i'm not having fun i shouldn't do it anymore - but i really do have a lot of fun when I work within the confines of the rules - a lot of good things come - but I see a haste to throw the rules aside and it's making improving (for me) very difficult.
So now I'm thinking I don't know how to relax and have fun with it! or i'm publically being a suck
What am I trying to say . . . good question!
I have no idea.
this is how i feel, and if you want to chime in be my guest.