i think Monkeydick is getting better everyday. did you see our last show? i though it was pretty good. i'd like to hear your thoughts on why we are "starting to suck." we've only had like six or seven shows.
i am always open to constructive criticism, but give us a break!
seriously though, i think it's understandable to be pissed if you've gotten cut from a team or been passed over if you've put your heart into it, and perhaps you need to vent. i've been there and don't need to be harsh towards you since obviously you feel strongly above the issues you mentioned, and passion misdirected can turn into rage.
i think satan, and others who haven't had the good fortune to get on or stay on a team need (seriously) the support of the UCB community. many of us have been there, taken this rejection poorly because we care so much. i think we have an opportunity to turn that bitterness into a positive driving force. it's too bad there isn't a jam anymore, or even better a student/harold team only jam, so those whose ties to the theater are tenous don't have to sever those ties completely. we can try not to compound a professional decision with personal rejection.
in time i believe talent is always rewarded, though it takes a lot of work to get that point. talent alone does not entitle you to anything. and hard work doesn't always pay off, or at least it may take a while to pay off.
again, i think satan-o-rific 's feelings, however venomous, are out of fear, and attacking this person doesn't benefit us or them. now i don't want to be seen as taking their side. i think i can sympathize a bit though having been in the underdog/unpopular position a few times myself. i think satan is afraid that his (or her, though i doubt it) is afraid that they have missed, lost, blown, or been deprived of a unique opportunity, that a door has been closed in their face. we've all felt screwed over, whether or not that feeling was justified. don't mistake this for condescencion, satan or anyone else, but it sounds like you need a hug and to be told it's okay, it's not the end of the world. it may be upsetting, but that feeling will pass. if you dwell on it it will just hold you back, personally and professionally. you're letting the people you perceive as the enemy win if they stop you from doing something you care about. i'm all for people pursuing something they are passionate about, especially if it is some form of art/self-expression.
umm...i think that's it. good luck. and though you say monkeydick sucks, i forgive you. undoubtedly you anger blinded you, sending you into an illogical spiral of judgement, since that can be the only excuse. i, on behalf of monkeydick (unofficially, and without their endorsement or consent in any form) forgive you.
b.
p.s.- as an afterthough i add this: when you calm down, and as probably so long as no one finds out who you are, and if you decide to stick around despite whatevers happened to you (though it sounds like you won't), you may want to try communicating with some of the people you seem to consider on the other side of the fence, thus turning enemies into allies, or at least gaining some mutual understanding. i speak from experience.
now i may sound hypocrtical, but consider giving people a chance. most people in the world aren't so bad. well, not most, but some. at least a few. alright, three.
another joke! it's a kinder, gentler brian berrebbi. i hope you keep posting satan because you are so angry and bitter that it makes me look like a pussycat!
again, a joke. seriously, satan, making friends is more productive than making enemies. i am not saying you shouldn't feel how you feel or express it, but know that those come at a cost which may be more than you can afford. so here's a deal" you try to understand how the people you attack feel, and we'll try to understand. i'm sure we can both gain from looking at things in another perspective.
