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#1
This summer I 've seen over 10 dead birds , lying cold on asphat/concrete/dirt with varying levels of compression and decomposition. A pigeon crashed into my dads windshield .... initially, he thought it might have been a rock, until he noticed its head -- the body had flown back to shower the back window with blood. On 80 west a sparrow flew right into the wheels of the car in front me.

Mom once told me a story about when she worked in the country side during the cultural revolution. At the time Mao had recently named sparrows, locusts, and something else as enemies to the state. Everyone in the villlage stopped farming went out with whatever they had - sticks, rocks, old muskets - to hunt the sparrows. In the end they had a huge pile of them ... I don't remember if they ended up eating them or not.

Well, I just feel strange. Before this summer seeing a dead bird was certainly a rare occurance, but for some reason, it seems like they've given up the ghost . I swear they are simply jumping off buildings and not bothering to flap.
 
#2
I drove to pittsburg this weekend to visit my mom. The for some reason I started thinking about K., ... which was odd, I thought I had stopped obsessing over her already. Perhaps its the dulldrums of driving on interstate highways .... i never fail to completely dissociate from the outside world, leaving a mental skeleton army of sorts to do the actual driving, while the rest sink into plesant pipe dreams.

this particular one was simple enough, but cozy and warm-hazy ... K and I, lying somewhere, backs to the floor, looking at the ceiling, music somewhere lilting, a bit of haze, perhaps the intimation of drugs. ...

vonnegut once described a relationship between two people, where the two had united into some kind of organization such that they, together, had become separate from the rest of the world .... <i>wampeter</i> was it? ... nation of two, or something. It was in cats cradle, i tihnk ... its been a bit since Ive read it.
 
#4
mmm...

todays weather was grand ... the pre-dusk sun sparkles upon akron, making this piece of shit place look magnificent, nostalgic and poignant. I love when the shadows really stretch out ... I think dusk is why I wanted to be a truck driver as a kid. Driving west around twillight and before, something incredibly expansive about it. Pop in a lil' Mazzy Star, and you on your way...
 
#5
onaka ga ureshii

Seems like I am tuned for running on peanuts -- arrived at work at 2 pm today ( its acedemic work ) a popped a payday out of the vendin machine. Its 6 now, and I don't the slightest pangs of hunger. 1 silly little peanut and caramel bar ... its much more effective than the 2 bowls of "Kashi Good Friends" i usually have, albiet less nutritious no doubt.

Kashi really needs to market their cereal differently .... something about the fake smiles of 60 year old women plastered on their boxes just makes me want to kick that old bags teeth in....
 
#6
through the pond by the oak
lies a frond who hates her fern

drown'd thick in elderberrie
port, absinthe and old sherry
not a single petal down
nettles spring round n round

she lies 'n' sputters, lays awake
and never looks in deeper lakes...
 
#8
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the looks about to come tumbling down, giant tumber-like of acid rain .... its pitch gray, or is it grey? It stinks that theres no monsoon season in America.. nothing purges and cleans a city quite like torrential downpours (all though it leads to a moldy smell after a while ....)

i saw my uncle the other day ... he wants to take me out to dinner, "I'll take you to the most expensive restaurant in town", he said.

"Umm, ok, thanks ", I replied

"Yes, I know .... I know you like making your life miserable," he said, avunclar (in a bad conotation) as ever.

"....", huh? what? ".... yeah, thanks.", i finally said.

people confuse me ... on the outside it seems like they are being so sane and normal. they do it with such non-chalance ;; but none of it really makes sense to me anymore.
 
#9
its funny watching Ali Davis's journal view counter go up n up n up n up, its like ... exponential, but not quite ... probably quadratic and X .> 1 . I didnt think that This American Life had such a huge following, but the again, they *are* national.

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this guys so cute.
 
#10
i went to noise camp 2002 at cpop in detroit during the week-end; its parti "art installation, part rock show, and fun for the kids" ... or something like that. ... and I had fun, lots of it .... i usually don't get into things much anymore, but noise camp engulfed me in its bachanalian analog carpet homley-ness.

i got warn defever's instrumental album there (when flowers cover'd the earth) for a measly 5 bucks. Neat! It took me a while to recognize warn ... i wasnt sure it was him till he put on his shades. ..

I got to work at 3:30 pm today .... this trend has got to stopped ... more over reversed.
 
#11
serpent skin and ooooolllldddd bark....

today is blah incarnated in my guts.... my neck and back hurts from sitting too much. i need to get up .... and walk about; what i need is a complete change of air.


i think it might be because I haven't had my pay day yet today.
 
#13
the etymology of her toes always rather intrigued me -- did they simply sprout out like Athena from the head of Zeus? they smelled of water chestnuts -- perplexing! -- i would never know, i knew. I ran my fingers through them once more, leaving me with no impetus to live. they yielded and sprang back gently, aspens underwater with root systesms that ran up her leg, metastisizing into her body. The Nile pouring its blood into the delta, thikenin up the medditeranian. And here i stood at the fountainheads, speechless, awed, mind in a flutter of daffodil mothes.
 
#14
my new replacement hard drive came in today, after weeks in transit from Malaysia, IBMs hd repair centre. It died some time ago ... but i was able to save most of the data (thank you fate)

i am unwrapping it, its kind of taped up ... and im thinking, "some poor bastard in malaysia getting exploited by IBM wrapped this ... 2 weeks ago he saw this harddrive just I see it now ... thats what me and this malaysian have together, the moon, the sun and this fucking 46.1 gb DeskStar hardrive."

i feel like writting a letter back to him. "thanks for the hard drive, Im enjoying it very much. Today was hot, but then it rained. Now its nice ... how are you?"
 
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