Life is good

[Camiac]

Wow, I am so lucky to be me! Everything in my life is so awesome! I have an amazing family, awesome friends, and everything just rocks! I started improv a couple of months ago, and I absolutely love it! It is so awesome to be able to become a character and play out a scene and not worry about what other people are thinking! You just go with the flow and it is so much fun! The people at practice are so awesome, I have never met people who are so accepting and nice. It is so cool! I have made so many new friends who I feel like I have known forever! It rocks!
There is one thing in my life that is not so great, my brother moved to North Carolina two months ago and that has been really hard. The reason why I started improv was because of him. He is an amazing improviser. I always used to go and watch his shows. I never thought to try improv until he left. It is kind of a comfort going and doing improv, it reminds me of him and that helps a lot. He is one of my very best friends and not having him here to talk to is really hard. There are so many times that I just feel like crying and I want to talk to him because he always knew the right things to say and how to make me feel better. I hope to be able to become a decent improviser so that this summer when I go to visit him I can be able to play with him! I think that would be so awesome! Well, that is me. Til next time,
Cami

 

[Camiac]

Life goes on

Well, I went to an improv show on Friday, and it was really good. They didn't play any long form and I was sad because I love watching long forms. Oh well. On Saturday I went to improv practice and the doors were locked so we didn't have practice. I was kind of sad because I really like doing improv, but a bunch of us went to the mall and played video games, it was pretty fun. I really like being around Calvin, Adam, and Steve. I have known Adam and Steve for about three years, and they always make me laugh and are fun to be around. Calvin is just awesome and I can talk to him about anything. They had a show in Salt Lake Saturday night and it was fun to watch. I hope that some day I can be half as good as they are. I just want to keep learning and practicing so that I can get better. I would be really scared to do a show though. I don't even know if that will happen, I guess I will just have to wait and see. Ya know what I hate? I hate having crushes on people. It is just setting yourself up for disappointment. But the thing is, you can't control who you have a crush on. It is just one of those things in life that just kind of sucks. Oh well, life goes on. That is all for now.
Cami

 

[Camiac]

Tb2

Improv is awesome! I went to Trolley Brawl 2 last night, and talk about awesome. There are so many good improvisers..wow...it boggles my mind :loopy: . I really like how they set up Trolley Brawl this year, last year they had a bunch of different troupes play all in one night, and it was a little too long. This year they are playing on two different nights, which I think is a great idea. I am not going to the second half because it is on a Sunday, but I am sure it will be just as awesome as Thursday. Hopefully they will record it so I can watch it. Austin has been telling me that in NC the talent is unbelievable!! I can't wait until August to go and see it for myself. Fun Stuff!! I still haven't been able to make it out to practice lately. I wanted to go to the class on Wednesday because Jady taught the class, and I heard it was awesome. But I took a nap and when I woke up it was too late to go, I was so mad. Oh well, what do ya do? Hmm...well my bed is calling my name. Good Night!
Cami

P.S. For whom it may concern :inlove: Joe :inlove:
Hehehe

 

[Camiac]

Self esteem

Have you ever been surrounded by a lot of people, yet you feel so alone? Have you ever felt like no one knows what you are going through and no one cares how you feel? Well, that is how I have been feeling lately. It really sucks. I have a lot of friends, but no one seems to understand or care about how I have been hurting. Maybe it's because I haven't been opening up enough, but I am scared to talk to people about some things, because I feel that they would think I am just being dumb. I am probably just being selfish. I have been on this emotional roller coaster for some time now. I am either really happy, or really depressed. I have been having some major self esteem issues and I don't know how to control the way I have been feeling. I am writing this in here because it helps to let out some of the things I have been feeling lately. I just have this empty feeling in me, and sometimes I just have to cry to feel better. The one person that could always make me feel better when I have felt like this before is my brother Austin. I could always talk to him about anything and he understood. I MISS HIM SOOO MUCH!!!
Sorry about the depressing entry, but it helps to write it down. Hopefully things will start to be better.
Cami

 

[Camiac]

Bad news

Today was really bad. I found out that one of my good friends mom is in the hospital and it is really serious. I almost started crying when I found out and I am really worried. I feel like there isn't anything that I can do, but I want to do anything and everything that I can. I haven't ever had anything like this happen to me before and I just don't know what to do. If anyone has any advice, I am open to anything....
Cami

 

[Camiac]

Good People

Often times people refer to their improv troupes as family. Everyone has a connection with one another and everyone is loved and respected for their own individual personality. Sometimes I wonder why people can't act like that all the time. Why is it that improvisers seem to be so much more accepting of people and their beliefs? I wish that that openness and willingness to learn about and meet new people happened everywhere!
Cami

 

[Camiac]

Oh Happy Days

I have found that no matter how bad or sad I feel, things always get better. Sometimes you think that the world hates you and life sucks, but then things will take a turn for the best and life gets better. Its funny how that works. Maybe sucky things happen to make you realize the good things you have in life, and help you realize what is important.
My life has definitely been taking some happy turns. First of all my brother is coming home to visit in two weeks and I am so excited!! I even get to take a Harold class from him which I am way stoked about! I never took the chance to take a class from him, and now I get to. WAHOO!! I also went to my Senior Cotillion on Saturday which was so much fun. My dress was so puffy, we had to stuff it in the car each time I got in! I felt like a princess (which doesn't happen very often because I am kind of a Tom-boy). But what do you expect from growing up with three brothers? Anyway, we went to eat at Rodizio Grill, which was way cool and the dance was at Rice Eccles Stadium and it was soo pretty!! I loved every minute of it.
Life is so much fun. I feel so lucky to be alive. I am sad and happy that I am going to be graduating in one month. It is so weird, you go to school for thirteen years and then life is just open. So many opportunities, so much to look forward to, but yet, so much to be living right now. I love being 17. It has been so great I don't want to grow up.
I really miss going to improv practice. It has been cancelled due to lack of people and a teacher. I think my brother was the glue holding those practices together and now that he is gone, the commitment is gone. Oh well, I just miss being around awesome people. I made some good friends there, but now that practices have stopped, I never talk to them anymore. It's weird how you can be such good friends (or so I thought) and then all of the sudden never talk anymore. It really makes me kind of sad. I dunno.
Well, that is me right now in a nut shell. So much more to say, but I will write another time.

Cami

 

[Camiac]

Frustration

Grrrr... I hate how you can be having a perfectly wonderful day and then someone has to be a total beasty jerk and it can ruin your whole day. There is this girl in one of my classes who I haven't really known, but I always try to be nice to her. Well, she thinks that she is soo cool and that she is so much better then everyone else and she totally looks down on people and treats them like crap. Even people that she has supposedly been friends with. I can't stand how rude and inconsiderate and obnoxious she is. AHHH!! I just want to yell at her and tell her stop acting like a bitch to everyone!! Geez, sorry for swearing, but sometimes there is no other way to describe a person. Well, enough of that, I just needed to get that off my chest. I am going to bed now.

Cami

 

[Camiac]

I'm on top of the world...

This weekend is going to ROCK!! My brother is coming tonight and on Friday he will be doing a Mass Prov with Jesse. It is going to be soo good. I also am going to hang out with one of my friends that I haven't seen in over a month. There is nothing like being with people that you haven't see in a while, it just feels good to catch up on things and just talk. I am way excited! On Saturday I am going to go to a Harold class that my brother will be teaching...I haven't done improv forever, but it should still be a blast. I can't wait!! And on Saturday night, we are having a party for my brother, because he is leaving to Peru and my sister from Arizona will be there! I just love being with my family, nothing can compare with hanging out with my brothers and sister! Yay. 12 more school days until graduation!! WAHOO!! Well that's all for now. Type to ya later.
Cami

 

[Camiac]

Good/Bad

There were many good things that happened this weekend, but some bad things. The good outweighed the bad, but there were still those bad things that just hurt. Here was the past week day to day...

Wednesday: I went to improv class at OTW with my brother Austin. It was so much fun to do improv again, but it was mainly fun just hanging out with my brother. I don't care what we do, I just love being around him.

Thursday: I found out that my best friend has been having a really hard time with a major issue that has been going on for several months. She had been keeping it from me, but I feel like such a jerk because I couldn't even tell that something was wrong with her...some friend I am. I felt like crap that whole night.

Friday: What a night! I went to Wingers with some friends from school and some of my improv friends that I hadn't seen forever! It was way fun!! I miss my improv buddies, I hope we hang out more during the summer. I talked with my friend Camille about anything and everything. We caught up with eachothers lives and it was so much fun to talk to her and hang out with her again. She is one amazing girl! After Winger's we went to OTW Ogden to watch my brother Austin perform. He is amazing. He was upset with his improv that night, but I thought he did great. Some of my friends had never seen an improv show before, but they loved it! They thought Austin was the best one, and he really is. He truly has progressed so much from living in NC. Go Austin!!

Saturday: Wowzers..I went to Austin's Harold class...there is so much to learn about the Harold and improv. There was so much to take in, it was mind boggling. It was a wicked fun class though. I was by far the most inexperienced one there and it was really intimidating trying to improvise with all of these other amazing improvisers. It really made me want to become better and master this new challenge. It is an exciting new world to explore...
Once again, just hanging out with my big bro was the highlight of my day! It was really hard that night when I had to say goodbye to him the second time. It was definitely harder than the first time, because I got used to not having him there and so when he came back I remembered why I missed him so much I didn't want to let him go again. On top of that my other brother is leaving on Wednesday and I won't see him for two years. I am losing my two closest friends in the same week. I am not alone, but I feel so alone. There are so many people that I can talk to about things, but there is nothing like having a good conversation with your big brother. HOLY CRAP THIS SUCKS!!! I know I should be happy for them, because they are both doing things that are going to help them move on with their lives and accomplish their goals, but why do they have to leave me? I cried myself to sleep....that helped.

Another highlight of this week was hangin' with my friend Calvin. I saw him this week the most that I have seen him in a long time. I missed him so much. He can really make a person's day :up:
Well I need to sleep now. Peace out!

Cami