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[punky_sarah]

Hey all, what up? well, here goes, my second journal entry. yay so, lately i've been talking to my friend who lives in Okinowa and i really miss him. it's sad. he is a christian like me and is always really sweet, but oh well, maybe i'll see him again someday. hopefully. But my real pressing problem has to do with my best friend here. He is the nicest, cutest,most understanding person in the world. Well, ive known he likes me for a while, about a year actually, and so i finally decided to let him in on a little secret, i like him too. but since i told him he doesn't seem to look me in the eyes. Is it just me, or does that seem wrong? i mean, i know practically everything there is to know about him, even some things i'd rather not want to know, but now that he knows how i feel he just wants to pretend that i never said anything. oh well, i supposed thats life, huh? well, i gotta get and babysit, so, i suppose that i'll just type somemore in here later.
Peace.
Sarah

 

[punky_sarah]

Rant!! Beware!!

Ok, so i'm back, when, just this morning i posted a new thread. wow, this thing is pretty hard to work! haha. well, anywho. I have decided to start a comic. If you have ever read life's so rad, or Nothing Nice to Say, then you'd know what i mean when i say it's about my life. well, actually those comics are just where i got my idea, that an my friend Bri's pictures, so, yah. If u wanna check it out when i get it done, that's kool. ~~~~ OK, so, today, i had to babysit, how fun, huh? yah, I need a real job. At least i need to find something to do before school starts. Man, i'm gonna have my hands fully this year.... :bleagh: well, a System of a Down song says that "they're tryin to build a prison for you and me" well, that is how i feel during the summer. Especially when there is now place in town that is hiring. damn them. and when your best friend seems to be ignoring you. So, right now, my prision is my home and my cousins house(where i babysit). Can someone please break me out? Please? Nah, i'm just kidding. I'll survive until i graduate...but then what will happen? will i just become a couch/computer potato? God, I hope not. Everybody says i have potential, because according to them i have all of these awesome talents, i mean, i can draw, design, play guitar, sing, and fix pretty much any computer known to man, but the thing is, i don't want to be doing those things for the rest of my life. They bore me, i'd rather have one thing that took some effort than a thousand things where all i have to do is lift a finger and it's done, you know, something that takes a little time and energy, something that is stimulating to both body and mind. well, i don't supposed there is anything i can do except go out and find something. Search for it, i mean, i can't be able to do everything, can i? Sometimes i feel like my friends think so. They ask me to help them out with all of their problems, i mean, i'm happy to help them, but when i ask most of them for help, what do they do? they turn their backs on me, they abandon me, they pretend like i've never done anything for them. wait, what's my problem, this isn't like me, I'm not usually bitter or cynical, but i'm not "upbeat" either. According to one of my friends i'm one of those people who don't seem to give a damn what happens in their life, so long as my friends are happy, well, that's not trure. if any of my firends are reading this, i'm sorry, but this is how i am feeling right now. DId u know that one of my friends got pissed off for me for like a month because i told her to handle her own problems for once. How did i get into such a compromising postion? To have to put my life on hold, while everyone else gets to go and live theirs, it just doesn't seem fair. I highly doubt that i would tell any of my friends these things face to face, but it is much easier to say in writing. well, this has been an especially long rant for only my third entry, so, i suppose that i'll stop now.
bye bye for now.
SaRaH

 

[punky_sarah]

morning...blech...

Hey all i'm back once again haha. i'm a dork. lol. anywho, u know what i hate? Mornings. not just every single morning, only monday mornings. You get up in a rush, afraid you've slept in, then you rush around the house doing some last minute things while you get ready for work/school. When you actually get to where you were going you are either very late or very early because you've looked at your watch wrong. Then those first things/classes you do, you seem to do everything wrong. You don't know how to check in a movie or add 2+2 because to you, it isn't 4 it's 3. lol. well, you know what Ali? if you are reading this i find your life as a porn clerk stories hillarious, and i'm soooo sorry that you have to put up with sleeze bags like that. alright, i'm out to babysit.
laterdays and peace
SaRaH

 

[punky_sarah]

Stamp Crisis!

AAAAAAAAACCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK!!! I HAVE NO STAMPS!!! DEAR GOD SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!! well, anywho..lol. i've written a letter to my friend Ryan and i have no stamps! damn the man. lol. the stamp man that is..lmfao. well, i still haven't decided what to do about chad. a few of my friends have told me that i should confront him and just see how things would go if we were a couple, but a few others have suggested that i wait for this certain boy whom i've liked since i was in like 8th grade. well, this boy likes me too. for now, let's refer to him as...uhh...lets say Bob. well, bob really likes me, but doens't live in my town. He lives in a lil town about 100 miles away and i have no way of getting to see him. the thing i like about him is that he always knows the right thing to say. if i've had a bad day he tells me that if he could he'd like to be with me just so i could have a shoulder to cry on. he also liked me when i weighed a lot more than i do. the other person only asked me out after i lost weight. so..i dunno...is he shallow or is bob just really deep? oh well....
Peace, later days
SaRaH

 

[punky_sarah]

weird dream

I had a really weird dream last night, and what's even more wierd than the dream is that i actually slept..lol. so, in this dream, I think I was at NYC...(National Youth Council[church]) and I ran into an old friend. We were esctatic to see eachother. We hung out the whole time and he got my digits and then...i woke up..i don't know. the last time i had a dream like that the person that was in the dream hooked up with me. i dunnoooo....oh well, i'm out.
SaRaH
hey, sorry so short!!

 

[punky_sarah]

my mother....

My mother is the strangest person. One day she'll say something and the next day she'll totally contradict what she said. It's almost like when she says stuff that she's daring me to prove her wrong. Once when I did prove her wrong she didn't talk to me for like a week, si i tend to just nod my head and say uh-huh to her because i don't like the silent treatment. It can be very affective when u are the only other one in the house. Well, anyway. I had to buy a backpack today. as much as i hate to admit it, i need to get off my lazy ass and start doin stuff with my summer be4 school starts back up. I was planning on losing at least thirty pounds....hasn't happened. i mean, i lost at least 5 pounds from walking everywhere until i get my liscense/car (whichever comes first..lol). but, i need to do what i wanted to do this summer. well, i'm outta time. i'll be gettin back soon.
later days.
Sarah


Remeber: Fighting for peace, is like Fucking for chastity...

 

[punky_sarah]

new thread

Hey ya'll if anyone besides Bri reads this, i just wanted to let you know that i am posting a new thread, not sure what to call it yet, but just look for it. lol thanx
LaTeR dAyS
SaRaH