I recently changed my email address. I got an email today from a photographer I whom I used to do some modeling for. I don't mean "professional type getting paid modeling", I mean "hey can you model for my "glam" photography this weekend?" type modeling. This is something I enjoyed doing. Tremendously. I was about 30 pounds lighter then. Great for my self-esteem. The last time I talked to this person, I told him I was probably through with modeling. I was so very proud of my photos that I got from our sessions. My husband doesn't like the pics... I admit that I was a vey different person then but I would still like to think my "true" self was shining through. These pics were not nudes or even semi-nudes by any means so don't get the wrong idea. However, they were sexy. they were fun and I don't regret any moment. I wish I were able to do more. I love having my picture made when it is done correctly. It makes me feel beautiful, sensuous, and just totally awesome. I would like to lose those 30 pounds and pose just one more time, before it gets too late. I guess that is my shallow side coming out. Everyone has one, some just pretend it doesn't exist. We all share certain traits, some are just better at dissimilating than others.