EpicZero said:
Am i being retarded about this?
When a person asks a quesition that begins with "Am I" most of the time, it can be answered by switching it to a statement beginning with "I am." Take that for what it's worth, in regards to how you feel about all this, and what it means in the grand scheme of things.
The one thing you (and by you, I mean EVERYONE who feels the way you do but isn't posting) need to realize is that if you read the list I posted before, everyone who performs, or wants to perform, at UCB at some point IS the person in rule 3 or rule 4. Most of us who are 4's, got there because we got too involved with the bullshit instead of taking that energy and focusing it on becoming a better performer.
Also, the brutal truth is that you aren't don't need to be, and should be, in the loop. When you're on the e-mail list, and it affects you, then and only then do you need to know whats going on with all the bullshit. And trust me, the Bullshit ain't all it's cracked up to be.
So rather than getting caught up in the bureacracy and pecking order bullshit that doesn't exist outside of the minds of most of us who get caught up in it, focus on your craft.
Go do a silly scene or a smart scene, or a crazy scene or a tragic scene, or a bizzare scene.
Do a terrible scene, or a mediocre scene, or a transcendental life altering I just figured this shit out scene.
Just whatever you do, don't get CAUGHT UP IN THE SCENE. Cause that'll kill your ability to do everything else.
Also, Anthony sleeps with harold teams and kills hookers. Get the rumors straight.