dead puppies arn't much fun

[thegreatgoombah]

no luck

no where on the internet is a picture of what the leprosy bacterium looks like. Hmm...well, i'm sure it's out there somewhere, i just can't find it. >.< how the heck am I supposed to do a report without a picture of what the stupid thing looks like? grrrrrr
I figured it out. I'm a procrastonator. I dont do things until the very last second. I have these two reports due on the same day, both needing lots of information...and i'm not even half done with the first one....they're due on tuesday. Hmmm...inside I know I shouldn't be here at all, and I should be looking up things and finishing the projects..but I just can't do it. Ah well...i'll get them done in time...hopefully....
"brass monkey...that funky monkey..brass monkey chunky...that funky monkey...." hehehe...funny song...had to explain to kandis what spanish fly was though. Silly kandis.
*sigh*....i SUPPOSE i should go start working on my project....*deep heavy sigh of acceptance of a fate that I'll never escape*

 

[thegreatgoombah]

I just wanna be free

I am so sick of school at this point. There's only like two weeks left and I can't wait! God I just want it to be summer. To be sitting in my room listening to music and petting my cat contently day after day until hark! the sound of rain patters against my window pane! Oh the joy! Oh the rapture!! To just walk around in the rain is the best feeling in the world. I walk and walk until I forget who I am and just Just once, i'd like to live in the country and have it rain and just rip off my clothes and run wild. To run and run until no breath is left in my lungs...and of course making sure I dont traumatize anyone who might be watching...then go home and eat hot cinnamon rolls...mmm....cinnamon rolls......*sigh*
Ahhh...to be free must be the best feeling in the world...

Hmm...today went good. I held jacks hand *gasp* i know...pathetic that i'm getting all excited about that. I'm just having trouble trusting him. I dont really consider myself that much of a trusting person. I mean, I have close friends and stuff and enjoy that..but no one really knows any of my secrets or anything, not even kandis. So to have him come in my life and have me really like him..but have to trust him with my emotions...is rather difficult for me...but I'll learn to!! ^-^V (that's a peace sign btb...i know...it looks slightly deformed...)
*deep heavy sobs of discontent* I dont wanna go to school no more!!! I have the summer itch so bad! not that i'm really going to be doing anything..but the luxurey of sleeping in and eating cheesy eggs at two in the afternoon...*squeaks with glee* I still haven't done those projects...and I think they're due next tuesday....>.< why do I procrastonate!? every time I do it I vow never to do it again! but then some project rolls around and i dont end up doing it until the night before its due..miraculously i've never gotten lower than a B...hmm...which I guess doesn't help me get better at procrastonating does it? ahh..my nice slightly-less-comfy-then-my-real-bed futon calls...can't keep it waiting..that'd just be cruel...

 

[thegreatgoombah]

pbthhhpt

I just got back froma 'barbacue'...friend lauren,and kyle invited me and jack to watch movies and eat nummies......i'm running on three hours of sleep and a small nap taken on jack. I swear...i didn't even get five minutes into the movie before I crashed. It was kinda sad. ah well....so now instead of me not being able to see the keyboard..the keys are just moving around. Think it'd be safe to drive? (yea! do it! do it!) heh...kandis is camping at the dunes this weekend and i'm sorely tempted to just show up tomorrow and be like 'lets play!' and then be forced to find sand in places you didn't think sand could get for the next two weeks...so maybe i wont...depends on how i feel tomorrow. I would take friends with me, but the two people i'd want to come dont exactly get along..so i'm probably going to scrap the idea... i'd feel really bad if i just left and didn't tell them i was going....damn guilty conscience...

my mother just came in and gave me another lecture on how I should be just like kandis. JESUS!! JUST ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM FOR CHRISTS SAKE!!! *pant pant* all better...my entire family's kinda getting on my nerves alot lately. My mother will just come up and ask her annoying question for the day and i'll just want to rip her head off..but that wouldnt be nice because she's my mother. Now Meghan on the other hand...hehehe...her baby still smells like potaotes. I dont know if it's a side effect of the crack her mother smoked while she was pregnant or what but no matter how many times you wash it, the smell lingers....
>.< it's only six thirty. so.......tired......cant hardly keep my eyes open. If I went to bed now I'd want to get up at like five in the morning. And that's bad. Well..maybe i'd want to go to the dunes then, being well rested and all. Grrr....i still haven't started my damn health project and it's due sometime next week. All my fault. I really should just sit down and do it..but it's so damn time consuming!! I have to do this big project on aids and i have to use like six different sources and cite them all and make a bibliography and blah blah blah. >.< too much work. I did all this last year, what makes them think i want to do it again? damn sadist administrators...>.< aw screw the fact that it's only six thirty. I'm going to sleep.

 

[thegreatgoombah]

Aaahhhh....saturday at last...

*heavy sign of conetentment* God yes, I didn't get up until eleven thirty today, and i just ate some pears, watched a little tv and am now sitting to a day of surfing the net. Whee! No homework this weekend, no deeply horrible worries plaguing my mind..maybe i'll start my garden today. It's eightys six degrees out today (thank you god!..it's been in the 100's the past week) and i just tilled the soil all up..i sense a trip to home depot in my near future. Hmm what should it be this year...last year was vegetables which were alright, and I dont really do flowers...maybe i'll have a fruit garden this year..mmm...watermelon....*drools*
I'm sorely tempted to just wear my bondate pants around my house, but that would make my mother angry. Last night I went to this luau dance thing..and it pretty much sucked . All they played was R&B all night...*shudder* i dont mind if they want to play a little because who am I to tell people what they should and shouldn't listen too..but my god. Three hours of it? And they didn't even repeat a song! I didn't know there were that many annoying songs out there in the world. The good thing about it though was they had free food. mmmmmm..foood...which was pretty good. Pizza of all types and these big sandwiches which would have been better had they cut them into pieces instead of making us gnaw off a chunk leaving half the insides behind.
My mother just informed me that it's after one o clock. Noooooo really? Because I'm not surrounded by clocks and i'm illiterate and dont know how to tell time. Gawww and all this time I thought it was midnight. Go figure! stupid mother.
LMFAO..oh god! *wipes tear* i'm reading webcomics because i have nothing else to do and proud of it, and i just read one called SLACKERS by Dreamdestiny...hehee. funny shit! check it out if you're into the webcomic thing..www.slackerscomic.com I also highly recommend www.megatokyo.com if you've never read it. It's the best webcomic i've read. There's a lot of them though, i think it's up to 394..but it's worth sitting down and reading. Damn comp. It's in the nasty habit of kicking me off whenever it feels like it again. "Oh! you're downloading a good song! hmmm...disconnect!" >.< much anger. Last night I was talking to my friend on the phone and i walked into the office which faces the backyard...well, if you could call it a backyard..it's more like a strip of grass..anyway, i was talking to her and suddenly someone pounds on the window, so in my usual fasion I scream and trip on a bottle on the floor falling into the window and breaking it. Very graceful on my part if I say so myself. So everyone rushes in to see what the crash was finding me in a pile of glass, and they laugh at me. because you know, scaring the shit out of someone and causing them to slice themself with broken glass is hilarous. Well...actually..had it been someone else i'd probably be laughing my ass off..but not in front of them! I mean, god guys, a simple 'you alright?' before you start wetting yourself with mirth would be nice. It turned out to be meghan who had thumped the window, and she's busting a gut. heh..laugh about this! *cuts brake line* what now bitch!? Grrrr..

 

[thegreatgoombah]

lmfao..*wipes tear*

ah well. Life is interesting...heh, i kid. It's really really boring. *sigh* although school gets out in another week, I’m not as excited for it to end. Jacks’ leaving this Friday for the entire summer, and as soon as school’s done I have a babysitting job ALL summer that my mother’s making me do. >.< nooooooo!! That’s just how I wanted to spend my summer…from eight in the morning until who knows when EVERYDAY…no sleeping in for me...*sob*
Mmmmmm! Cup cakes! My wonderful mother just made cupcakes. *drools* god I love cupcakes...ooh! Lacy wants one hehe, not gonna get one you fatty! Aww...the look...she’s giving me the big puppy eyes and is licking her lips. Maybe I should wave it in front of her..and then eat it. Mmmm lacy! This is SO gOOOOOd!!! LMAO I’m so cruel. I think I’m going to kiss jack before he leaves. I don’t want him to go to Florida with all those hot babes and even think about cheating on me..though I guess a kiss wouldn’t really stop him would it? Although I highly doubt he would ; he’s the kind of guy who’d have the decency to dump me first. Oh god! I love this song! Mad World by Gary Jules. I highly suggest it. *hums along* heh, this is why I don’t join choir...bad singer. Bleh. Daaaariaaa, yea, I wont be soothed over like smoothed over like milk....silk.....a bedspread or a quilt.....icing on a cake...or a serene translucent lake..hehe..thats a good song too. I’m all alone in my house at the moment and have the tunes blasting. Whee! I need to rent some movies this weekend. Good ol’ anime ones. I don’t think our rental store has any though..*sigh* they have to big ones, like Princess Mononoke or My Neighbor Totoro..but no series’ or anything. The only store I know of that even carries actual anime is the suncoast at the mall. As soon as I start reaping the benefits of this job my mother is making me have, I’ll be going there a lot. There and hot topic. Hehe, my mother has resigned herself to the fact that I’m not Kandis I think. She’s been really nice lately. Or maybe she’s just leading me into a false sense of security so when she burns all my clothes I wont see it coming...hmmm..*thoughtful stance* nah. She doesn’t even give me the ‘look’ when I walk in the room anymore. You all know what I’m talking about. That look that just says ‘I’m not mad at you. I’m just disappointed’ arg! I hate that look! That’s what made us get into arguments usually, because she’d look ever and give me that look, and sigh, and then start saying something like ‘Kandis is wearing cute clothes today’ or ‘wow, why don’t you wear that sweater set that Kandis likes so much?’...maybe it’s because I’m not her! I know this comes as a shock to you mother..but we’re two totally different people despite us being twins. She’s on the preppy side of the scale, and I’m not. But since she’s realized this fact, we’ve been getting along really well. I kinda like getting along with her..the feeling of being hunted was getting on my nerves. And when I get along with her and she’s happy, I get away with stuff. Score!

 

[thegreatgoombah]

heh

I just watched Moulin Rouge with my friend last night. Funniest movie I've seen in awhile. I thought the funniest thing was that the girl had TB throughout the entire movie...kissed multiple partners, coughed on people, breathed heavily in several scenes....and no one else got infected...Hmmmm...whats wrong with this picture? I thought it was highly contagious...mm..i just got done eating a bratwurst. Mmmm..*drools* good stuff. I am home alone. Nobody loves me. Kandis and my mother (both of them thank god..they've been HIGHLY irritating today) went to the BX (uh..Base Exchange for you civilians out there) and my fajah went to take meghan the hore to dinner. ^-^ I like being alone. No arguing, no excuses to be made, no one to tell me that they're waiting for a call...*sigh of contentment* I'm starting my job tomorrow. Hurray! (notice the dripping sarcasam) I’m going to be babysitting these two kids all summer 8 hours a day for 300 dollars a month..as annoying as these two kids will be by the end of the summer, I really need the money. I also need to convince my parents to let me go to the Warp Tour with my friend Breezy this june....heh..yea right. I’ll ask them, and they’ll say no, and then I’ll end up going anyways and have to lie to my parents. Geez, first bondage pants, then the Warp Tour, next: crack. They’re teaching me that lying is good. So when I’m crack addict and they ask me where they went wrong, I’ll have to say ‘You made me do it. How could you?” Yesterday was the last day of school!! Wheeee!!! :banana: :jump: They made us clean out our lockers before we left and you know what’s stoopid? They charge you if there’s dust left in your locker. Yup. 1 dollah. 1 dollah if there’s a pencil in there and 3 dollahs if there’s writing. Dust! They charge for dust!! And they don’t provide the cleaning supplies. They expect a bunch of high schoolers to voluntarily dust their lockers. *shakes head* I knew our school was poor...but I didn’t know they needed money THAT bad...
I'm excited for the summer. It should be fun, despite the having a job and not getting to sleep in part....at least i'll already be on the base so after work I can go swim laps (YeS!!!!!!!!) :up: and then i'll be able to buy new clothes with my money i'm getting..though i'm debating whether to buy them as soon as i get money or towards next school year...i suppose i could wait, but if i see something i REALLY like i'll buy it.
*sigh* bored bored bored bored bored..wish something would happen...
i'm downloading songs from the Moulin Rouge soundtrack..just a couple ones..like the Spectacular Spectacular song. God my favorite part of that movie was when the Duke took the girl (why the fuck can't i remember her name? ah well) and the writer (christian?) on a picnic and he found a frog. LMFAO! *wipes tear* And then he does that little gay dance thing! ha! i fall into fits of laughter and i'm not even watching it.
I'm having a really good day. Yes indeedy. I think i'll go take lacy on a walk now that it's getting dark out. Yes...and i'll dress incognito for no apparent reason...hehehe
lmao

 

[thegreatgoombah]

yea!! 50 bucks!

Well, this week has been adventurous to say the least. The job is..well...a job. The little girl’s name is Makayla and she gets up at 5.30 every morning, and stays hyper throughout the day. Hurray. I have to be there at 7 every morning, and I don’t usually leave until 3 or 4, so it’s just like a school day for me. >.< Was it that much to hope for a job that let me sleep in a little? *sigh* I guess I’m just doomed to walk to earth always tired and cranky. I decided to pare down my gas money and I bought a sandwich at KFC. Mmmm...i’ve always been a bit wary buying food there though. It’s just a little more..i dunno....sadistic? The fact that you stand there and tell the guy how many hacked off limbs of a poor defenseless chicken you want and how you want them cooked just seems a little more personal than say ordering a hamburger. You don’t know how much of the cow went into that burger, but you do know that some chicken is wandering around without it’s legs, one wing, and a breast....or it could just be me...
Awwwww...>.< damn parentals. "Sure katie! get on the internet!' *five minutes later* "Why are you on the internet!!? I'm expecting a phone call!!!" >.<

 

[thegreatgoombah]

aaaaahhhhh new layout!!

I like! I just gotta get used to it. So far everything's easier than before. Like changing the font and so forth. Instead of typing everything in that little box you can make your whole entry a different font. Whee!! :up: I approve
Hmmm...all alone...no one here. I got home from babysitting and the house was dark. Wonder where they are. this is the life. Sitting in the dark, the room illuminated only by the soft glow comming from my monitor, downloading songs, rambling meaninglessly on my blog, eating cold macaroni. mmmmm...i think i'll go buy pudding and making frozen pudding pops. God those are good. Especially with pistachio pudding. Mmmmmm.....my two favorite puddings : pistachio and rice. *drools at the thought*
I love this song! It's the closing credits from Moulin Rouge. Bolero. I highly suggest it. It reminds me of jack for some strange reason, which is very weird because i dont even know if he's ever seen it...nor does it personify any of his traits or anything....i guess it could be that everything is reminding me of him lately. >.< Highly annoying to be babysitting some persons kids and be making their dinner and just go '...this water sure is taking a long time to boi....jack?....hmmm...' :blush:
It's been two hours...i wonder where my family is...as long as they're not dead they can take all the time they need to get home...i think i'd know it if they died though. Well, at least i think i'd know it if kandis died. That weird freaky twin thing. It's not like i'd feel sudden pain or anything, i would just feel that other half of me die...if she did die, i dont think i'd ever pull out of it. I wouldn't kill myself or anything..but i wouldn't really have much to live for. That sounds really corny doesn't it? But it's true. As bitchy as she is at times, she's my other half, and if she wasn't there, it would be as if I was going through the world without my senses. Taste would be dulled, sight would be colorless, I wouldn't be responsive half the time. Sobering thought no? Am I weird to think of what I would do if family members died? I do it all the time...if meghan died, i'd be very happy. Sad for my parents who dont see her as the devil spawn she is and would probably cry a lot, and sad for makayla who would have to grow up without a mother, but i'd be so very happy...No matter how i explain it to my parents, they just want me to try to be nice to her. I can't! Dont they understand!? My childhood was a living hell because of her! I have scars on my body from her! I can't listen to Manson or ICP without horrible memories of her flooding through me! Even if she died i'd still suffer from the things she did to me! SO why the hell should i 'forgive her' or 'try to be nice to her'. And My god!! I absolutely hate it when people who dont even know what the hell they're talking about tell me that 'she's changed and is trying to be nice to you, but you keep pushing her away' yea. Maybe it's because I dont relish being stabbed again. Which is what happend the LAST time i trusted her. Never again. Never ever again. And you know what? she can go screw herself. She can take the 'why doesn't katie like me mom and dad?' and screw herself! My parents have informed me that she doesn't remember the bad things she did to me..well I fucking do and if they aren't going to respect my undying hatred for her, the utter loathing which fills my soul whenever i catch wind of her (for she smells really bad you see) then they can screw themselves to. ARGG!! *snort* I need some pudding....

 

[thegreatgoombah]

I feel much better now that i've given up all hope...

I ate frozen pudding today. Well, actually it was more of a frozen pudding mush really..i kinda got tired of waiting for it to freeze all the way through..yea.
i'm so god damn tired right now. I can barely keep my head up. This babysitting job is really taking it out of me. This week my little charge is going to Bible camp so i've been made the fun and games director. So from 9 to 12 i'm stuck being beaten by kids who dont like organized games, but like to tackle and maim the fun and games director, strip her of all her dignity, and then hide her shoes all the while laughing like they've just taken a couple hits of E. And now my dog wants my jello. The bastard. You have food! Do I have to go out and point at it like a moron for yoU!? *sighs* it's been a long day. It's been so windy all day, that there is a dirt haze all over the town. We live in a desert, so dirt is a way of life out here. But when it gets really windy, like it is right now, everything takes on the appearance of a sepia tone picture. Nice effect if you ask me, except for the fact that i have to have my eyes closed the entire day if I dont want to have my contacts assailed by little razor sharp specs of dirt that never come out and leave me in agonizing pain the rest of the evening. *sigh* i dont even get to go to the warp tour. My father said yes, and my mother said yes..until she found out it was a concert. Well dear god, what did you expect it to be? Then she goes 'it's a concert?' with that tone of voice that suggests she's visualizing us satanically worshiping the unused chicken parts that KFC throws out every day. My god! Just let me be free! I'm not meghan! I'm responsible, and I wont be stupid and get myself in trouble.

 

[thegreatgoombah]

Life hurts. Owwies.

Much anger. As soon as I want to get on the internet, our house magically transforms into Grand Central Station. Why does everyone have to call? All I want to do is peruse the internet for an hour. Is that too much to ask for? Obviously because as soon as I get on, my mother needs to make important phone calls that she could have made an hour before when I didn’t want to get on the internet, and the people she’s calling aren’t home so I have to wait for them to get back at o dark thirty so I can finally get on. Jesus Christ mother! If you have shit to do, then don’t let me get on!! It’s only extremely frustrating for me to be halfway done downloading stuff just to have to get off and start over. It doesn’t help that I’m practically doubled over in agony because my special friend is visiting so I’m already a bit tense. And my mother keeps making noise. Why doesn’t she realize that I’m not listening and stop. >.< Oh can I? My mother made me the offer of ‘well, if she hasn’t called back by ten (an hour after I wanted to go to bed >.<) Then you can get on for fifteen minutes.’ Hmm...as opposed to the hour I would have gotten if you weren’t stupid. How about, I get on now, and you suck it..I’m writing this all on a word doc btb, in the hopes that I actually DO get on tonight. Jesus Christ I’m fucking tired, have to get up early tomorrow morning, and am not exactly in the best of moods. Now’s not the time to piss me off. And of course when I bring this up to my mother, she tells me that I’m being ungreatful. Yea, well you’re being a bitch. God I hate that. So I’m being ungrateful am I? Why, because I just want an hour of rest, pleasure, and joy in my life? >.<
My job has ceased to be fun. If it was ever fun. The little girl is highly irritating. All she does is talk and talk and talk about nothing in particular, is exceedingly hyper, always wants to play the card game War, and she’s preppy in every sense of the word...i dunno..she wants to be like me though. I got there today and she was sportin black velvet pants and a black shirt and proclaimed proudly ‘see, I own black too!’ -_-“....and then last week she shaved her legs, nicking herself in a manner that only a 9 year old with a secret could, and then proceeded to lie to her parents about it. ‘I fell down the stairs..’ yea. Riiight. Heh. It’s only Monday and I’m ready to contract a lethal disease. It usually takes until Wednesday for me to fell like that. This week is not going to be fun. I can’t wait for the Renaissance wedding Kandis and I are going to this weekend though!! I rented my costume the other day. I really wanted to be a swordsman(woman..?) but the costumes they had for that were too big *sigh* So I got a really cool dress and am going to top it off with a sword that’s going to be strapped to my back. Grrrrr..^-^V I’ve always wanted to go to one of these, so it should be interesting. They’re supposedly going to have period food also. Whee! *does the ‘I can’t wait’dance* :banana:

 

[thegreatgoombah]

whee!

Today's been pretty good, other than the whole job thing. yea. that sucks. I am now a productive drone in society. what more do you want from me? Mow the lawn? WTF are you on!? I'm reading the new Harry Potter book, because i think they're cool...but this one is just kinda making me angry. There's such a personality change in harry, it just bothers me I guess (oh..uh..hehe..if I spoil anything for anyone here..uh..dont kill me k?) He's all whiny and such an asshole to everyone. At first I was like 'woah..go harry, sticking up for yourself' but he's sort of turning out to be just like Draco. He just gets mad at everyone because people are saying stuff about him. Personally, when people say i'm being something, I do my damn hardest NOT to act that way..but harry's sort of playing into their trap. And he throws tantrums a lot. Ohh! Ron got the Prefect badge! Not me! poo poo poo. Blah!!!! He's not the only character i'm dissapointed with. Sirius also is bothering me. He's treating Harry like he's his dad. He's setting himself up for dissapointment. That's proven later in the book when he gets mad at harry for not being 'as brave as his father'. Well so what!? He's not his father! Geez! And once again the Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher is just another wakko loon who everyone is set up to hate. Ah. But other than that, i'm fine with the book so far. Maybe i'll finish it tomorrow....kandis wants to read it after me and them my friend breezy.
I'm supposed to be taking care of my friends cat this week because she's gone to Colorado I think..anyway, i got there this morning and the door wouldn't unlock! It was crazy! So I spent the whole day worrying about whether her cat was going to starve the entier week or not, and I get home and tell my mother. Who of course has to call everyone on base to try and get the cell phone number of my friends mom, and telling everyone my life story along the way. I finally get ahold of my friend and it turns out you have to life the door up and pull it in towards yourself when unlocking it. You also have to stand on one foot, while blowing bubbles out your nose, humming the Star Spangled Banner and whispering 'banana' twenty times fast. Whups, I only have two hours to watch cowboy bebop and eat chocolate cake. Hehehe, Away! :jump:

 

[thegreatgoombah]

lalalalalalalala

Tomorrow is the renassaince ball. Whee! Can hardly wait. I picked up me and kandis's dresses today. (kandis's and I's..i'm out of school..suck it.) They're sooo cool! ^-^V I hope I can scrape up enough change to buy a camera to take some pics. Goals for when I get my first pay check the first of july..*ahem*
1. Fill the gas tank up to the F (for full) line, because in my driving of it, I have never seen it past the halfway mark..and it mostly hovers around 'empty'...
2. Buy the megatokyo flapdoozy..because sadly, my ever present messenger bag broke the other day *sniff* i know..i'm still mourning the loss..>.< stoopid kandis...
3. and buy a new article of clothing..if I have enough moolah. I hope she pays me more than fifty dollars...I'll be kinda pissed if she doesn't...
And that ladies and gentlemen..is my to do list..ooh! forgot one I am hoping to buy another anime to add to my not so extensive but growing collection. Whee! Or maybe I'll get Shinobi for PS2 so my parents will finally let me play it. They dont know if it's 'right' for me to play it..seeing how my penpal got it through fraud..but of course it's alright for my dad to take the very nice cd player, and everything else that he wanted without having any moral delimas...jerks. I need food. Haven't had any today. The little girls i was babysitting were arguing and tearing eachothers hair out so I sent them to their rooms without any. Then when they started to whine and cry that they'd be good, i gave them a chance..and as soon as they got sight of eachother they were at it again. So no lunch for them. Mmmm....tuna cassarole..*drools* with peas and chedder(cheddar?) cheese on top...god that's a weird word..chedder(cheddar..>.>...<.<...)who the hell name's cheeses anyway? The person who invented them? Gorgonzolla..I'd hate to have THAT last name..or mozerella...or do they name them after cities..or people who they remembe when they eat them..or they're pet poodles..I must find this out...AWAY!

 

[thegreatgoombah]

I see they've changed the look a bit again..like to keep you on your toes lately dont they? hehe..HAPPY BELATED FOURTH OF JULY!!! ^-^ I was going to write that before fourth of july actually happened..but my parents are being bitches lately and wouldn't let me get on for the longest time...eh..
The renassaince ball was great! I'm definatly renting that costume for halloween..add a cloak and some high quality fangs and you've got yourself a vampire *squeee!* Can hardly wait. That's my favorite holiday..halloween... Forget christmas..that's always been just a big hassle, family fights, meghan over..i'd rather just pass it up. And christmas music...god they start playing it months before and I can really only stand that stuff for a week..then I'm all christmas spirited out..ack...fingers hurt really bad. We went away for four days to watch fireworks at a friend of my parents house..and they're moving into a new house three blocks away. It needed to be renovated so we painted ceilings and walls and ripped up all the carpet in the house the first day..i woke up this morning and i couldn't even put on my class ring m fingers were so swollen..and they hurt like a bitch..it's painful to type so this is going to be short..and excuse me if there are typos up the wazzo..i dont want to go back and fix them..i'm also very tired. Me and my father split the driving time in half and I didn't get a very good sleep the night before (hah! do I ever?) so yea..I watched the new Cowboy Bebop movie. Excellent. It blew me away. If your a fan of the series, you know how they dont show much of Spike fighting. They show you just enough to know that he could kick any of your dad's asses but thats about it. Well, in the movie they show Spike's l33t fighting skillz through the entire thing. ^-^ Very nice. *drool* Not to mention that the plot line is very good..and the music in it is catchy..ack..fingers very painful. Adiu

 

[thegreatgoombah]

Whee! God I'm so bushed. Babysitting really takes it out of you. I just borrowed Devil May Cry 2 from my friend, and it's really fun. My mom just sits there and complains about its lack of fluffy clouds and giddy bunnies with carrots though. I just wish she'd shut up. She's always going on and on about how I need to play nice games. Shove it. I dont like nice games. Now would you rather I vent my negative energies through mindless video game violence, or take it out on the people whom I loathe...think about that. I suppose I could do both....hmm...wonderful idea...
I just bought a new messenger bag. God be praised! I was going through serious messenger bag withdrawl. Ah.Can't wait for it to come in. I also got a twenty five dollar gift certificate for Barnes&Noble from the friends we helped during fourth of july. They didn't have to, but that was really nice of them..so now i"ve got to decide whether I want to spend it on music, manga's, or educational reading...hmm..tough decision. Not. Ah damn. Forgot I have to babysit in five minutes. ' gotta jet! *pleads to god to let her make it on time*

 

[thegreatgoombah]

ouchies...

Kandis pulled a chair right out from under me in that 'i'm a loving caring sister, and i'm only looking out for your best interests' kind of way, and she made me bruise my tailbone. >.< I just got done with having it bruised to..so every waking moment of my life is pain..that is, until the drugs kick in Ahh what life would be without drugs. I suppose there would be a lot of dying people all over the place, but then again we'd have our population under control..and then we'd be able to tell if someone had a problem so we would stay away from them... Whee! A sort of leper system! *evil grin* the first to be shunned would be meghan I think..yes..I could make up a disease for her and tell everyone it was contagious...mwahaha! The plan is perfect! All I need to do is destroy the worlds drug supply..yes...
Am I the only one that thinks my parents are annoying? they told me to quite playing my video game today and to go downstairs and play it. hmmm..let's think about this guys. It's REALLY hard to play my PS2 downstairs if you GIVE THE FUCKING TV AND VCR TO MEGHAN!! "She'll only have it for a couple weeks" you guys said. hah. Next time when you make a promise, try to keep it. It took us at least five months to get the car back from her after you said she'd only have it for three days, what makes us think that we'll EVER believe you when it comes to meghan? *shakes head* ah, can't wait until I get Shinobi this week. My mother REALLY wont like that one Maybe if she'd accept me for who i am a bit more often, i wouldn't go out of my way to piss her off. Instead of complaining all the time about my 'not nice games' she should suck it and leave the room. -_-' but I doubt that will ever happen. She'll just complain about everything I do until I'm perfect like Kandis.
Awww...my dog is cute ^-^ she's just laying on the ground barking softly in her sleep. I wonder what she dreams of..probably chasing the UPS van..hehe, that's the only thing she'll get off her lazy butt to chase. I'm perusing the barnes and noble website for music I want to buy with my new gift card..I think i'm going to buy Suicide Notes and Butterfly Kisses by Atreyu..the clips are pretty decent. I just really dont have any books I want to buy, and need to expand my music collection a bit more...yea...decision made. Oh.it seems i've been on the internet for an hour. oh no! That must mean my brain is going to fall out and i shall live the rest of my life as an incompetent pawn in society because my mother seems to think that an hour is long enough to get everything done, and is screaming at me to get off. She's been really getting on my nerves lately...*sigh*

 

[thegreatgoombah]

ahh..the job is finally paying off

I am starting to reap in the rewards. My flapdoozy just came in ^-^. It's not as big as i thought it would be, but it works. Yesterday I bought Shinobi. The graphics aren't as good as I had expected, but so far it's pretty fun. I'm also playing Metal Gear Solid 'cause my friend cody lent it to me and said it was a good shoot 'em up game, which my mother doesn't like, which is why i'm playing it. I'm really interesting in buying a cell phone too. But I dont want to have to pay a lot of money for one...so i was thinking of talking to my friend kyle about his. He has one where you just buy the phone, and then whenever you want minutes you buy a hpone card. I need to learn more about it though, and I dont want to waste all my money so maybe kandis would split the price with me, and we can just trade it off on different days. I wonder if she'll go for it. Heh..probably not. But I can try right? And then maybe my mother will let me go places, instead of the excuse of 'i dont know whose there with you (yea right, like I didn't just tell her that..why does she never believe me? Have I ever lied to her?) and I wont be able to get a hold of you (hmm..have always provided a phone number too..) Or maybe I'll find out how much it really costs and decide not to go for it. I only have a job for the summer, the dough's not gong to keep rolling in. I'll probably have to go back to babysitting every Friday for these people I really enjoy babysitting for. They have a boy and a little girl whose very cute. The boy and I just play video games the entire time :up: My kind of babysitting.I'm so happy. Tomorrow and Friday the lady is bringing her girls up here in town so I dont have to get up at 6 o clock and drive down to the base/ So..very...happy.. *wipes tear* Which menas I get to sleep in until 7.30 tomorrow! WoOt! That's rather sad isn't it..that I consider 7.30 sleeping in. *sigh* I dont do mornings. Kandis does mornings, I dont. I do nights. I whatever job I do end up doing, I have night shift. That would be pure heaven . I can't wait, in a couple weeks I'm free of babysitting! I'm going to be rock climbing in the mountains with kandis for a week, which should be a blast. Can't wait, can't wait. And it gives me a chance to get out of the house. Unless i'm playing video games, I am not content to sit in my house, nor someone elses. Problem is that it's sunny all the time, and I'm not keen on getting sun sick, which is my only main worry about this trip. We'll be outside all the time, and at 103 degrees on the face of a giant rock cliff in the blazing sun just screams 'haha! katie's going to get siiick' so i shall take all precautions and seek shade whenever possible. I need to go up to boise and get a pair of jeans...I dont really have any...yea..thats about it. :nervous: Uh oh...my mother's home..and she knows that the girls are comming over tomorrow...she's going on a rampage! Aaaah!! "Why is the house not spotless you infidels! Clean! Clean I say!" *sobs silently* Dear god, please do no let her find me...if only I can hide until I can run from the house screaming..yes..thats it..run..

 

[thegreatgoombah]

ahh..the sweet sound of screaming

Meghan's in hell and i mock her. Her baby is sick and wont be quiet and meghan's like 'i just want some sleep! She doesn't ever shut up!' hehehe welcome to motherhood you hore. Her pain is my pleasure. Woah that makes me sound like some sort of massachist...which we found out that kandis's cat is. I accidentally dropped him yesterday and he hit the door pretty hard, so he fell to the ground, sat there for a bit, and then *gasp* was all cute and purrful over me. It was quite a shock..he doesn't usually like anyone but kandis..so we assumed that he likes pain. I shall make a memo to abuse him more often..
Hurray! My parents are going out to dinner tonight. That means kandis and I can have fun times together. I'm hoping to order a pizza or go out somewhere semi nice. Then we can come home and watch some anime dvds that aren't parent appropriate....this day is just getting better and better. The kids i babysit came over here today and we just played and had fun all day..well..until about 2 in the afternoon..not really all day. Wow..my parents are leaving soon and I need to pick kandis up in a half an hour. Time to take a shower..i'm pretty whiff. It's amazing what you can forgoe when all your spare time is spent getting your game on, like eating and sleeping...

 

[thegreatgoombah]

Arg. My job is boring. And tiring. I get up at 5 just to sit around a house all day. I know most of you are like ‘damn. Wish MY job was that easy. Sitting on your ass all day doing nothing. man’ Well let me tell you. It sucks. You can’t watch tv and you can’t use the phone in case the parents try to call...and you can’t bring a cd player because you need to be aware of whats going on at all times..and the kids fight you and don’t do what they’re told, and they never check in on time, and if I was allowed to I’d beat them. *sigh* Thank god for my vacation that’s coming up. Did I tell you guys? Next week Kandis and I are spending the entire week rock climbing. God..something to do that’s NOT sitting on my butt. I couldn’t even go lap swimming after babysitting because of the funky lap swim hours and the stupid rules my parents insist on having me follow. God I miss swimming. Soooo much. I get that itch between my shoulder blades that screams ‘dear god! Just let me put my feet in the water!!’ and I am unable to soothe it. Then after a while it wanders back dejectedly into the cave it came out of just to torment me again later. *deep heavy sigh* There are so many things I want to do before I die and I know I wont be able to do them all. I want to fly. I want to make beautiful pottery and smash it against walls. I want to play the guitar like a drunken gypsy. I want to speak every language in the world. I want to be mysterious. I want to have a band. I want to kill Meghan and not get caught. I want to be able to explode peoples heads with my cosmic mind power. I want to colonize outer space. I want to invent something that in the future no one lives without. I want to stand in the middle of a crowded room and scream. I want all mythical creatures to be real. I want a hot dog. I want to be able to go out into the sun and not get sick after three hours. I want to be able to dance on my hands. I want dye my hair. I want to write a poem that doesn’t suck. ( for all my friends out there who know me personally, two words. “salty spray”) I want to just get in my car and drive. I want to blow up a gas station. I want to be just like the people in my video games. I want to walk down Main Street with a Claymore strapped to my back. I want to bitch slap somebody without them deserving it and then do it again when they ask why. I want to make candles. I want to go to a rave. I want to meet Johnny Depp. I want all of my not-friends *aka: enemies* to fall down dead for no apparent reason other than the fact that they pissed me off once. I want to be able to change my shape at will. I want to spend a million dollars all at once. I want to be able to get on the internet whenever I want and stay on as long as I want. I want to walk down the street one day and be attacked by ninjas. I want to whip out my broadsword for no reason and have an enemy pop out of the ground for a battle to the death...which I would win of course. I want to cliff jump into a raging river without a parachute nor a flotation device and come out unscathed. Ah. What a list. Hardly any of them achievable I admit, but by god I will accomplish them all. *justice pose* Awaaay!

 

[thegreatgoombah]

heh

Well, it's here. My grand rock clmibing trip starts tomorrow. I'm starting to think on this as not such a good idea anymore. I had a dream last night that i was climbing and reached the top and sat down to watch the rest of my group get up there. And then the guide pushed me off because I reminded him of his old girlfriend or something like that. yea. So, off I am to buy rock climbing shoes and then i'm off. If you dont hear from me in ten days, give me up for dead and read someone else's journal.

 

[thegreatgoombah]

Well..i'm back

I’m back! ^-^ Had such a fun time...i need to do it again soon. I came home sore, smelly, and ready to take a vacation from my vacation, but it was well worth it. I kept a journal of it so you too could reap in the pleasure of rock climbing, and while it is a bit long, there’s a lot to tell. Well...not really that there's a lot to tell...just more the fact that I ramble....a lot...

DAY 1 Sunday July 26th
Wow. I can’t believe I am going to be spending an entire week with these guys. -_-' *sigh* there are 5 girls and 2 guys because the other guy flaked out. There’s Kandis and I, Molly (13), Hanna (14), Jill (14), and the counselor Erika (21), and then there’s Mark (16) and the counselor Josh (22). Hanna and Jill are snotty and cling to each other while saying ‘Cha’ every five seconds, and the other girl makes my eye twitch. She’s way too perky...reminds me of a girl I know down at home that I can barely stand also. Mark seems to be alright...he’s at least talking to us and doesn’t give us a look every time we try to start conversation. Both the counselors seem really cool though. It took an hour to get here from my house. The first couple days we’re not actually up at the real camp...we’re in a different town that has a rock climbing wall and a program..stuff like that. The plan is:
Today: We talk and eat food then hike over to a different house to crash for the night and sleep beneath the stars. Whoo!
Monday: We get up and head over to the local YMCA thing that’s not a YMCA to piddle around on a ropes course them maybe climb on the inside rock wall.
Tuesday: Climb on the indoor rock wall
Wednesday: Go out and climb on real rocks. ^-^V looking forward to Wednesday
Thursday: Kandis and I chose an all day white water rafting trip...which sounds alright..i just hope I don’t get sun sick..5 hours in the sun.eesh.
Friday: Go home
God..with all these annoying people I’m not so sure how this will pan out...hopefully I’ll have fun, I’d hate to have wasted all this money.

Day 2 Monday July 27
Ah. After getting up at 8 and being at the rec center thing around 9, I was set for a day of fun. The plan said we were doing a ropes course but all we really did was a bunch of happy bunny group/trust activities where we had to solve problems together. While the thought of it at the time wanted to make me throw up, it was pretty fun. We were done at 12 and went back to the house to eat lunch..then having nothing to do for the rest of the day everyone decided we wanted to go back to the rec center and swim around a bit. Finally! My chance has come! I can lap swim for a couple hours!! ^-^ My cup runneth over. I dunno. Hanna and Jill weren’t so bad today. Maybe it was a first impression thing. I’m still kind of not sure about them, but at least I don’t loathe them anymore. Mark on the other hand has turned out to be REALLY immature. He’s so perverted and talks about girls taking their bras off. I get the sudden sense that he’s going to be the one I want to kill by the end of the week. Even Molly’s just harmless..this guy screams ‘hey! Kill me!’. I’m so tempted to beat him with a stick I’ve been eyeing for the past half hour. Last night we played games and roasted marshmallows at those peoples house. It was fun. Heh. It still amazes me that marshmallows melt when you put them in a pan. I don’t know why...crack dreams with Katie. We now have 9 people. Back to the people whose house we stayed at ..They had a son who was interested in coming with us; and since the plan was to have 9 people anyway, we thought why not. His name is Brandon and he’s 14 as well. He’s really nice and has a great sense of humor. Heh..kandis is flirting it up with our cute rock climbing instructor. I suppose she can do that though since she is no longer emotionally attached at the moment. My expectations for this trip have gone up a bit....

Day 3 Tuesday July 28
oh god. I regret doing that extra 200 yesterday in the pool. My arms are going to fall off and that would be just fine with me. Maybe the pain would lessen. We actually climbed on the big rock wall they have in side. First we learned how to make the knot in the rope you have to make so you don’t fall and die..(a figure eight knot I believe it’s called) and then we put on these special shoes which weren’t that bad actually. We got harnessed up and were climbing around, I happened to be the first to reach the top. I looked down and asked her if she wanted me to climb down and she told me to just let go of the wall. O.O. hah! The wall was at least 60 feet in the air and she just wanted me to let go? Yea. When hell freezes over! Unfortunately my iron will to stay up there until they called in a cherry picker was of no use when I lost my grip when I sneezed and fell off the wall. After my initial reaction of freezing up and bracing for impact, not unlike bracing for a deck to the face, I was jerked and hung there most likely in fetal position until I realized that I had stopped falling. I opened my eyes looked around, enjoyed the view for a bit and then had the lady (hmm..i should give her a name..what was it. Erm.. Tracy. Her name is tracy and her assistance who Kandis thinks is cute is Adam..there that oughta clear things up a bit) being the belayer inched me down. When I got to the bottom Kandis made fun of me and thought I was stoopid..until Tracy told her to let go when she got to the top. *smirks* what now bitch? It’s freaky the first time! 60 feet in the air imagining a plummeting fall to the ground only to survive by some odd luck and live slightly maimed. Actually..when you put it like that... After we were done galumphing about the rock wall we ate lunch and Kandis and I went lap swimming again. It feels sooo good! I hope I can do this more often when I get back home..i forgot how delicious it felt to slice through the water. My perceptions have totally changed. Hanna and Jill are awesome. They’re now our buddies. Mark and Molly (<-- can we say bubble head?) are now the bane of my camping experience..while my feelings of the counselors have not changed. I thought they were cool before and they still are. Josh and I had a wonderful conversation of how if I kicked him in the junk would it ruin our counselor/camper relationship we had going this afternoon. Very enthralling. Lmao. God I can’t wait for Halloween. Kandis and I decided we want to go as vampires to our junior prom so I can’t do it for Halloween or I’ll get bored with the idea. So I am going to be something else. I have it all planned and as soon as I get back and get my paycheck I can start to work. ^-^ I’m so excited but I can’t tell you what it is. It’s all hush hush until I get it done so if I screw up and it doesn’t end up working I can pretend that I never attempted in the first place. Isn’t denial fun? So...excited... :exp:

Day 4 Wednesday July 29
*cries* I had to get up at 6 today. *sigh* Just like work. We got all of our stuff packed and into the vans, ate breakfast, and set off for the cliffs. -_-‘ So...tired... we got there and harnessed up after hiking up to the base of the cliff and listened to their ‘safety’ talk about falling rocks and such. I was the first one up. ^-^ All I can say is fun. The indoor rock wall just sucked, but this, this is awesome!! It gives me the same rush that swimming does. I climbed up three runs successfully reaching the top on each one. I sucked on the indoor rock wall but outside I was really tearing it up. ^-^V so modest aren’t I? It’s the first thing I’ve been good at in a while so let me. After we were all done, we said our goodbyes to Tracy and Adam (Adam by the way, sliced his finger to the bone on a rock while we were there. I t was so cool! I took pictures ^-^) We headed out to the park to snarf food. Whee! Then we found out that we weren’t allowed to show up at the main camp in the mountains until after dinner. Aw. That leaves us here for five hours doing nothing. So everyone decided to go tubing down the river nearby. Such fun I had. But I’m suddenly regretting the decision. Adding it all up I’ve been in the sun for 7 hours, and I’m feeling it. I’m nauseas and am burning while my skin is all cold. Ick. I hate getting sun sick..but I haven’t’ thrown up yet which means I probably wont, so I’m only in the 2nd stage. I’ll be feeling better by either tomorrow morning or at latest afternoon. I hope I survive the rafting trip tomorrow. -_-'

Day 5 Thursday July 30
I woke up no longer nauseous, just horrendously achy and VERY tired. I ate a delicious breakfast of French toast and then we headed down to the place where we needed to get to so we could go rafting. We gave them our waivers and set off. Well, I can’t say it was extremely thrilling but I had fun. The river is really low at the moment due to drought so the biggest we went on was a class 3..fun..yes..Our guide pulled us off into a still pool a bit down the river and we all jumped off this gigantic rock into the river at a point where it was 20 feet deep. Then we stopped for lunch. Good stuff. Barbecue chicken and homemade strawberry shortcake. Mmm.. We then finished the rest of the part of the river. We got back to the camp around 3.30 and I’m feeling sick again. Blah. I took a shower and slept a bit before dinner where I didn’t eat much due to the fact that I felt like I was going to explode. Geez. Knowing how I am about sun, logic dictates that I would stay out of it as much as possible but noooo I have to go around pushing it. After dinner I went to a Clown Ministry service. It was really good. Our counselor Josh played the part of Jesus. It was pretty cool.. God I’m tired and am not feeling well at all. I just want to go home now *sigh* 15 hours to go.