dead puppies arn't much fun

[thegreatgoombah]

awwww...I was so cute

I'm looking at old photographs of me as a little baby and little cute toddler...oh, and I suppose Kandis is in there too....I'll tolerate it....for now...
There's this one where i'm sleeping under my trundle bed with my butt up in the air..very humerous. And another where I'm climbing a tree with a dress on. You see, I was the tomboy but liked to wear dresses when I was little, and kandis was the girly girl but didn't like to wear dresses. We were confused. Since then the confusion has been resolved. Now Kandis wears sweater sets...and..well..I dont..but that's alright, beause Kandis looks good in sweater seats, and well, I couldn't say the same for me. Not that i'd ever wear them mind you...They kind of creep me out..
Aww..there's a picture of my dog when she's really little How cute!! oh, btb, I'd post pics on here, but my parents are cheap and wont buy a dig camera or a scanner. SO I'll be hopefully getting a job soon, and probably will be blowing the money that I reap from my hard sweat inducing work on either clothes that my mother doesn't like or cd's that my mother doesn't like. it's a win win situation for me really...
Yummy! Cheesie toasties for dinner I just loove chesse toasties. They are the best..but not with tomatoe soup. Can't stand the stuff. It's like radioactive waste, with some red food coloring added....that...plus crap.... and it doesn't taste very good either. Sends chills up my spine remembering the first time I ever tasted the stuff...
**flashback mode**
It was another horrible sunny day at camp..(eh..I didn't really like camp that much...it kinda sucked...I got pnemonia and all that social interaction..*shudder* hehe) We were standing outside singing stupid camp songs and waiting for the directors to finally give us consent to stuff our maws with camp waste and someone looked at me, got this excited twinkle in their eyes, and said in a high pitched annoyingly exciting voice 'We're having tomato soup today!!! with Cheese sandwiches!!"...the temptation to smack her was overwhelming..but instead I said.."hmm...never had tomato soup before..I dont think I'll try it.." and she got this hurt expression on her face, and practically screamed "YOU HAVE TO TRY IT!!!" so I did...and then I threw up on the floor. Not only was the soup disgusting..but the cheese toasties were not cheese toasties. They had taken cheap dry wheat bread, rubbed it in the sand for texture, added some cheese that had been soaking in the lake for a bit, and microwaved it. Thenthey tried to convince us that it was healthy and good for us. I saw through their obnoxious facade immediatly, and I fasted all week. Then the next day they took us on this hike, from which I got a really bad case of sunsickness because they insisted on hiking in the bright noonday sun and then they got all mad at me when I didn't help set up camp..I'm sorry guys, I was a little incapacitaed at the moment, all but barfing my guts out on that damn boulder...(that is one reason of the many why I dont like the sun, I get sunsick at the drop of a hat...I remember this one time at the fair, I got so sick and the stoopid vendor next to where I decided to collapse in a heap wouldn't give my friends any ice because they had a McDonalds cup so they had to beg baby wipes from a person walking by and proceded to wipe me down with them...when I woke up I was traumatized..)

..flashback mode over...

...and you all wonder why I am the way I am....
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[thegreatgoombah]

*evil chuckle*

yummy cheese toasties....*drool*...
oh.yeah, the reason I was writing in this after I've already written my improv quota for the day....
Another fun quiz...it told me what JTHM moment I was....I think I have to agree on this one....

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/A/anarchychild/1038780999_anggsttttt.jpg" border="0" alt="You, my friend are smart but angsty. You know the truth about society.">

..and all you devoted jthm fans knows what happens next...hehe..spork...heheheheh.....



...........

took it again...I also think this one is just right for me....

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/A/anarchychild/1038781766_rbanmayhem.jpg" border="0" alt="People suck."><br>Urban mayhem....you have cooties heh i kid

 

[thegreatgoombah]

>.<

I got some good pictures of me, and I was all for posting one, but I can't. Stupid not able to post attachments rule.....grr...although I'm not sure if that's such a bad thing. I know out there somewhere is a weird freaky odd stalker who is fourty, balding, and is still living with his/her/it's mother writing down every little piece of information I write on here. Like, today it's raining. And they take account of what day, what time, and how heavy the rain fall is and track it on a map. One harmless sentence by harmless sentence he/she/it will track me down until one day I'll head off to school after a monotonus morning and have someone follow me. My very own stalker! Wow, and as I walk, I'll be thinking to myself 'heh, wonder of all wonders it didn't happen sooner....'
Today was good...my monkey friend has crabs....it's very tragic..*sniff*...we dont know what happend...*sniff sniff* It's just so sudden!!! *sobs uncontrollably* lmao
well..i'm tired, have loads of homework to do (alright alright, you caught me..I'm just tired...) and quite frankly, my day wasn't all that great nor exciting. Oh, except for jack was sick today or something...I hardly knew what to do with myself...hehe j/k

 

[thegreatgoombah]

another boring english class...

*yawn*
I hate that. We had to read a novel...hmm..have I already told you all this?..let me check...nope...anyway, we're reading this novel, and the sub didn't tell us that we shouldn't read the whole thing, but I did...so now I'm stuck sitting around twiddling my thumbs for the remainder of the reading -of- the- novel period....hey..wait..I think I did tell you guys that....meh..oh well.
I laugh at everyone who's sitting around still reading the dumb book. It was pretty stupid. I try to keep an open mind about these things...but it was stupid. That and the Maltese Falcon. Dont ever read that..well, unless you like mysteries...then you might enjoy it...I dont like mysteries, and it was apparent because I fell asleep three times reading it.
Oohhh...thats so terrible! I just read a news report about in Chechnya, Russian armed forces are taking Checnyian (chechnian..? meh..) civillians, tying them up and torturing them and when they're done, they take them out to a place and blow them up...

Dzhabrailov, 23, spoke to The Associated Press on condition his location not be revealed because he feared reprisals. The details of his story match the patterns Kovalyov's allies at the Russian human rights group Memorial have documented.
His head bandaged and his face covered in bruises, Dzhabrailov said masked troops stormed his house in the village of Pobedinskoye, 14 kilometers (9 miles) west of Grozny, at dawn on Feb. 16. They pulled him and his brother Valid, 30, from their beds, and — ignoring the pleas of their mother and sister — handcuffed them, put sacks over their heads and drove for about an hour until they heard gates opening.
He said he heard helicopters and believed he was at Khankala, the military's main base in Chechnya.
Dzhabrailov was separated from his brother and brought to a basement, where he remained chained to a pipe for a day and a half. Masked men visited him periodically, jabbing his kidneys with guns and breaking his nose with flashlights.
They demanded Dzhabrailov confess to having fought with the rebels. Dzhabrailov said he was never involved in fighting.
In the evening, he said, an unmasked man came, silently put a bag over Dzhabrailov's head and led him to a vehicle.
"A cold body lay under me," he said.
After a long ride, the men removed the corpse from the truck and dragged Dzhabrailov onto the ground, his head still covered. He said he heard a shot and a bullet took off some skin above his ear.
Dzhabrailov said he heard the men put something underneath him and the corpse and light it with a cigarette lighter.
Then the truck left, and Dzhabrailov freed himself and extinguished the lit fuse.
He looked at the corpse next to him and recognized his brother's mangled body by his clothes.

that's so horrible.

stupid robert...he was flicking a guy off, and when the teacher confronted him, said he had a piece of pencil lead in his eye. He bitched about it for the longest time, and then he said he needed to leave and wash it out of his eye. While he was in the hall "washing" the lead out of his eye, he broke a bit off his pencil came in , and was all like 'told you I had a piece of lead in my eye'
He's such a jerk.
*yawn* a half an hour of sitting in a room full of idiots. Just what I need. I'm serious. All they do is screw around and piss off the teacher. I can't even have a serious discussion with anyone in this class really with exceptions to the four people sitting around me and the teacher. And the one guy who pissed me off the other day is going to get it. Using my mind genius powers (hehehe...riiiight..) I'm going to create a liquid serum that causes explosive diarhea (no..not a laxative) which will be administered through a prick in the skin....yesss....you all will pay... *maniacle laughter*
Today was pretty good..although my damn alarm clock is broken and I missed my ride today. I thought it was operator error, but I checked, and it was set, on, and the volume was turned up, and this is the second time it's done it...which makes me think it's about time to get a new one....I dunno....could just be me....and the fact that today was the one day I would have actually wanted to eat breakfat (Mmmm.....turnovers......delicious..) and wasn't able to, really set off my day. But all was good because in PE we got to run outside....in the bright sun and gusting wind. Just great. Then I got the dubious honor of comming here. To the one class I have that is full of idiots... I can't wait to go home...
hey...are paper cuts supposed to squirt..? didn't think so....

oh, and after many requests..hehe...here's the address to the jthm quiz... *enter drumroll here...please?*

http://quizilla.com/users/anarchychild/quizzes/What JTHM moment are you?/

tada...enjoy...

argg...twenty minutes left.....I pray to still be sane by the end of the day.....

 

[thegreatgoombah]

again with english class...

once again I have a half an hour until I can run naked through my house with cowboy bebop music on at full blast....or maybe I'll just think about it....
This is kind of cool though, the fact that since I've already read this book, I can sit around and do nothing. Usually I'd just go to the library and write in here, but the librarians are all on heroin and think I'm writing emails. Gasp. No, not emails. Anything but that....

:jump:

bobby officially made an ass out of himself today....or maybe I just like to think that because he's on my shitlist. ah well...such is life.
Oh..before I forget, Happy Saint Patricks day!!!!.....belated of course. I was to busy stuffing my face with corned beef and cabbage to get on the internet... Mmmmm.....food.... And now I have marching band/flag practice everyday of the week bar fridays because of disney land, and our directors think that if we practice four months before the season even partially starts, we'll be better.... hehehe....
Doesn't that suck? Just a bit. There goes me getting a job this year. And next year. I basically can only work during the summer..and then only unitl the month before school starts because of...you guessed it..marching band. It's really taking up a lot of my time, which is not really that bad, because if all that time was free time, I'd be screwed because I dont have a life... But that's alright because I keep telling myself that it's fun, and that I'm enjoying myself, when really, I'm just plodding along, doing the same old same old.
I and friend lauren helped dye our flag coaches hair. Hehe...neither of us had done it before. I think it turned out nice, although how she expected us to do the highlights whilst still making it look natural is beyond me.....
Yeah one of my friends in band loaned me their cbbbp collection so I can stop mopping. I haven't seen it in two months, and all I did yesterday when I got home was watch 'Ballad of Falling Angels' in various languages over and over and over.
Bobby needs to die...or at least get explosive diarhea....
*sigh*
He's behind me trying to make me angry by saying stupid things
Uh-huh, like I give a rats rectum what you think about me....
It makes me so mad, the entire time we've been fundraising for our trip to Disneyland they've been telling us that they were paying for all of our food, and today, our delightful band leaders let us know that they weren't and that we need to bring 100 extra dollars, added to the 365 we're already bringing to pay for the trip, plus souvinier money (which I shall not be bringing any, I went to disneyworld, and I'm pretty sure they all have the same stuff...) What do they think we're made of? Money? And my mother still wants me to go to the New York thing...have I told you about that? I got a letter asking me formally to this thing in new york but its 2,000 dollars, plus round trip air fare...uh-huh... Hmm...let's see, 465 dollars for disneyland , and she wants me to still go New York..ouchies..just bite my tongue...>.<
I still want to go and be an exchange student to which is about 2,000 dollars ...so I'm thinking I'll just go to japan. Besides, New York wouldn't really interest me that much I think....
off to the wild wild world of cbbbp and nikked running....heheh..
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[thegreatgoombah]

...

whew....we got a new computer (THANK YOU GOD!!! *uncontrollable sobbing* ) and after four days they finally let me get on... of course, nobody is here right now, they all went somewhere without me, leaving the baby for me to babysit w/out my permission. They'll probably be gone all day. And did they ask me if I wanted to go w/ them? No, the assumed that just because meghan was going, I wouldn't want to. Well...they were right, but they could have at least asked. And did they ask if I had plans? Nooo..they just assumed that I would love to babysit a whining screaming baby who at this time is suffering from bronchitis. Can I? Please! sign me up! >_<
So I'm stuck here, listening to relaxing baby music (kill me now) trying to calm down a fussy baby who is sick, and trying to attempt to have a life at the same time. It's not working.
:exp:

Good things about my new comp.... it plays dvds.., it burns cds!, THE SOUDCARD ISN"T BROKEN!! happiness abounds I like the new set up, it came w/ windows XP, which takes some getting used to....


I had an eye appointment, and since my eyes got twice as worse...(i'm just lucky I guess..) the doctor wants me to wear reading glasses over my contacts when I read...hmmm...wtf? What exactly does that do? I can read just fine with the contacts themselves...what's wearing reading glasses going to do? Besides give me a headache... He says it might slow down my eyes from changing so drastically.... you wanna know why I got contacts? So I wouldnt have to deal with glasses...with bending them, cleaning them, breaking them, and now he wants me to wear them again when I read? What kind of crack is he on?
That make me think of something else...when it comes to me and kandis, I've always gotten the short end of the stick. Yesterday, when we went to get our eyes checked, and kandis found out that she'd need glasses, my mother told her she could get contacts. Just like that. WTF!!? let me 'splain. I had to wait two years...TWO YEARS to get contacts. And then I had to pay for the exam and the contacts themselves, with my own money scraped up from babysitting, and other odd jobs the neighbors let me do. I had to wait, and WORK for those damn contacts, and my mother lets kandis get them w/ out paying for anything or waiting for at least a month!? Argg!!! It always happens that way! They've both admitted it! And they dont do a damn thing to stop it!!!!
"Kandis, here, try on these really cool black pants" "Katie, put those pants away, they're black. Black is the devil."
or "Kandis, why dont you be the first one to drive by yourself even though you dont have all your miles done with us"
"Katie, you can't drive to get milk yet! You dont have all your miles done!"
or how about this little incident :
"Kandis, of course you can get two dresses, even though you have sixteen at home and you've only worn them once, and we barely have enough money for katie to get one"
"Katie, you need to pick one that's cheaper, we just bought kandis two more dresses."
I'm so sick and tired of taking it. I just brush it off, like I do everything else, but the fact that kandis doesn't have to pay for her own contacts was the last straw. So I confronted my mothers double standards, and my entire family (including my father, which hurt the most) told me to quit whining and just because I dont get my way all the time is no reason to get angry about a little thing like kandis not having to pay for her own contacts. AARGGGHH!!!!! I never get my way! Just once I'd like to have my mothers double standards turned in my favor for a while! Just once I'd like to get to do something fun and have kandis have to miss out! Just once I'd like my mother to accept me for who I am and to realize that I'm never going to be like kandis and that treating me differently is causing me serious psychological trauma!! (well...maybe I exaggerated a little on that part..but put yourself in my shoes..)
ARGG! And why wont this baby shut up!!!

 

[thegreatgoombah]

*sigh* have I mentioned how I loath my family?

I'm so sick of it. Argg!!!
First she makes my childhood a living hell and ruins any chance of me pretending to have a normal life, then she takes my car, which she was only supposed to have for three days and it's going three months, and then she takes over my freaking house! My god! How much longer will she insist on mooching off people and get a life and be INDEPENDENT! You know meghan!? It's what you do when you graduate high school and GROW UP! Oh..thats right..how could I forget..you dropped out of school and became a needy greasy crack hore. My bad. But how about you try this...eat your own food you work for yourself, give me back my car, tv,food, and internet, and leave me the hell alone. And now she met some poor slob to marry and I have to be in her wedding. Just great. Can I? Oh, and get this, it might be on my birthday. And my mother had the nerve to say 'oh! what a nice birthday present!' that's right, because being a bridesmaid in a wedding that I'm totally against for the bane of my existence that I have to hang around all day and be all 'loving' is my idea of a wonderful birthday present. Gimme!*shudder*
I went to church w/ my dad this weekend, and right before we left, meghan popped by our house and wanted to go with. Great just great. So I decided that I could tolerate it. Until she kicked me out of my front seat with the smuggest look on her face. Then she made me sit next to her whiny screaming bronchitis ridden diarheah spouting baby. So I sat through the church service ( I dont even know why she's there, she doesn't believe in God, nor personal hygiene it seems...) and then to make the day even more special my father decided to take us out to eat. Yeah, thats good I suppose.....until you have to watch meghan eat a greasy cheesburger with a big gigantic pimple next to her mouth, glancing over just in time to see the grease drip down her arm and watch her lick it up. Delicious. Suffice to say I couldn't eat any more of my pancakes. Thanks meghan, what else are you going to ruin? Oh..you want to hang out in my room and fill it with your disgusting stench and I can't do anything to stop you because my parents dont see you as the hanous bitch that you are? Okay..
>.<
I just remembered I have to run the mile in gym tomorrow. What else is going to go wrong!? I've had the worst week of my life and it's only tuesday. that's pretty sad. After marching around the same stupid block in the cold for three hours, I've developed very painful shinsplints and my right shoulder is sprained from doing the stupid slant routine!!
Maybe if I go to bed the world wont seem so vicious by the time I wake up....and then again, it's taken a liking to pissing me off lately so you never know...

 

[thegreatgoombah]

woah...

looking back on some of my more recent entries (heh..sometimes I dont remember what I write....) I've realized i've become extremly angsty. Well, I suppose thats what this is for, to release my anger in non-violent ways so that idiots may live and annoying peoples blood wont be shed. But still, i'll try and tone it down to one entry about meghan a week...heheh...lets see how long that lasts.
I got my car back for the afternoon. (and the chorus swells) only to find that it smells like smoke, and it's filled with trash. >.< so I threw away everything that was in there, and there were some pretty important looking documents...meh, she shouldn't have left them on the ground...
Meghans spawn is here today. have I ever mentioned that she smells like potato flakes? I dont think thats normal....
I have had a total of 5 hours of sleep this weekend. It's been great. I and friend erin were supposed to spend the night at another friends house
but her mother decided that we couldn't so the friend erin who was going to spent the night at my house on friday night and we stayed up all night watching anime dvds, and then we went over to the other friends house saturday night and stayed up all night playing video games, and then I went to church, was cranky, and decided I needed to be on the internet, not babysitting potato baby. Wheeeeeee
it's a happy sunny day out, and I have no intentions of going out at all today.
1 WEEK UNTIL WE GO TO DISNEYLAND!! Hurray! I dont know why i'm so excited, I'm sure it will be exactly the same as disneyworld, just with disneyland written on everything, but strangely I am. Maybe it's because I am actually doing something on spring break instead of sitting around my house, watching old movies and eating popcorn. Or maybe it's because it's an entire week of hanging out with my friends and having fun. Or maybe I'm just really looking forward to going on so many rollercoasters that I vomit and have someone take my picture...yes...I think thats it...
In any event, I need to find some money fast. I need a new pair of headphones (mine, tragically got smashed yesterday ..damn meghan...) and some new shirts. Which I wont get probably because I dont forsee a trip to Hot Topic in the near future. oh well, such is life. lalalalala

 

[thegreatgoombah]

Aaaahhhh

I've had a really good day.
I woke up, went to school. I had a fun lunch, walked home in the rain making it just in time to miss walking home in the sun, and cursed the asshole in fourth period to eternal damnation in hell whilst being plagued with explosive diarrhea. Very fufilling.
I'm going to disneyand next monday. Lalalalala *does the 'i'm going to disneyland dance* :banana:
I've just got to buy a few more things and then i'm fine.
I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF! I got the guts and wrote my cranberry nut muffin a note. *gasp* I know I know, very daring of me. lmao
Mmmm...baked potatoes for dinner! Delicious. I dont think this day could get any better....

 

[thegreatgoombah]

Two days two days two days two days

Two days to what? I hear you asking. SPRING BREAK AND DISNEYLAND!! WoOt!! Two days until I ride so many roller coasters I barf, two days until I can leave this hell hole called my house for a while and gain some sanity, two days until I can spend 8 fricking hours on a bus playing BS w/ my buddies. Can't tell i'm excited can you?....I know I cant.
*sigh* My mom has gotten especially bitchy lately, and I dont know why she feels a need to take it out on me. >.< We had a lock in the other night that was a blast, and jack was there which made it even more fun. ....but sadly so was my mom. And usually that's not a bad thing, because she stays in the kitchen the entire time or hangs out with the other adults...but this time, while we were all watching Shaving Ryans Privates..erm..I mean, Saving Private Ryan....and she insisted on yelling at us the entire time or telling us to be quiet. IT'S A LOCK IN!! PEOPLE TALK DURING MOVIES!!!!! IT HAPPENS!! >.< and then when we were playing fun games, she had to keep that eagle eye on kandis and her bf. Which I suppose is a pretty good idea, because...well...use your imagination, but it was still really rude to just single her out. grr
i'm really glad we're going away for spring break, frankly, I wouldn't be able to stand being holed up with my family for an entire week. My mother would just make me so angry i'd have to hurt something.....which would most likely be kandis, but hey, who'd you think I was going to beat on? My dog!?
Sadly, this will probably be the last I can write until I get back from disneyland, but hopefully all will go well, the band will finally realize that the 9th graders dont know the music and refuse to let them come, then we'll actually sound good and be able to keep a rhythm, and i'll fall in love with some swedish guy sphen who will take me away from it all (oh wait, can't do that can I? I have a bf now..hey, did i tell ya guys that jack and I are now 'in item' O.O oooooooooh..lmfao) I hope it's all I expect it to be, because if it's not, and I spent a good part of my childhood raising money for it only to be stupid, I'll have to be angry. And you dont want that. (ooooooh..that sounded ominous...)

 

[thegreatgoombah]

sit back, relax, this will take awhile

This is going to be a pretty accurate account of my spring break vacation to disneyland. As I said above, sit back, relax, because this WILL take a while.

DAY 1-2 :After an ass-numbing bus ride of fourteen hours, we arrived at our destination. disneyland! WoOt! So me and my group sat around expectantly, waiting for them to hand us our room key. (we all had to get into groups of 5 for rooming purposes. Thank god I didn't get stuck with somebody I'd end up killing. Hiding bodies isn't one of my fortes) Well, turns out the hotel screwed up and our room wasn't ready. It'd be done by three they said. (then, it was about two...keep in mind all of us smelled REALLY bad and we were going to Medieval Times at five.) So my group had to hole up in another room with people we dont especially like until three. Three came, and three passed. No room. Four came...and passed. No room. So we ended up taking a shower in their room (around three thirty, Goatboy, one of the people in that rooms bf, decided to come and take a shower in their room. Goatboy isn't just a nickname. He's an asshole and he DOES look like a goat. baaahh. and I didn't appreciate seeing him w/ out a shirt. Almost threw up.) They told us our room would be ready when we came back from Medival Times. So we went to medival times, had a blast. The knights were hot, nice, and looked good in armor. Oh yea. We came back to the hotel, moved all our stuff into our proper room and went to bed.

DAY 3:Morning arose! We got up at 6. Couldn't see out of my left eye, all gunked up. note: I never got to sleep in the entire break. *sigh*) we showered, our group chaparone gave us eighteen dollars each for all day, then we were set loose and we at breakfast at IHOP ( , never eaten there, and it was pretty good. And our server was awsome) and then we met back at the hotel to get our park passes and the itinerary. We walked over to disneyland (it was a block away) They let us loose on the park until we had to meet with our chaperones at 1 pm i believe it was. So we went on rides, had a joyous time, until I went to get a fastpass. >.< it had fallen out of my pocket when I was getting my map out sometime, so no fastpass for me. And it looked like no getting into the park the next day either, so I went around buying souviners and went to meet with my chaperone. told them what happened and they said they'd see what they could do. So I went to go buy some lunch for I was staving. My money was gone. It had gotten pickpocketed. All my money. 100 dollars worth. Now I was in disneyland with no money. *sigh* that's alright I told myself, I'd already bought my souviners, and i'm sure my friends wouldn't mind loaning me three dollars or something for food, and i'd just live off the McDonalds dollar menu the entire time. i was pretty sad about it though. Mostly worried my parents were going to kill me because i'd gotten pickpocketed. So I went to meet my chaperone again at 5 so we could all get ready for the parade. We sat through the people telling us the rules and stuff, then we went into the dressing rooms.We changed into our uniforms, and while I was uptting my hair into a bun, I noticed my eye was all pink. Great, just great. Now I had pink eye. What else could go wrong? We got pictures taken, all that good stuff. Then we marched in the parade. It was really really fun. Had a good time. Got back to the bus where we had our stuff sitting while we were marching, and picked up my souvines. They had all melted or exploded. >.< Why god!? Why!? i was REALLY upset. And I dont cry, ever. But a few tears escaped then. It was really miserable. So we got back to the hotel, and all I wanted to do was soak my feet and go to bed, so I soaked my feet in hot water (delicious. pure instant relief) and sat in bed for awhile. Eventualy went to sleep.

DAY 4: I got up, in a slightly better mood then I went to sleep in, took a shower, and got dressed. We were sitting around our room, waiting for the time when we had to get all our stuff downstairs and into the buses to leave when Mr. Milligan (that guy i was telling you guys about in marching band...the one that screamed and yelled at us? well, we've been getting a long better, and he's going out with my flag corps coach, so he's nicer to us at least) came into our room and asked me to come over where he was. Then he made me hold out my hand, and gave me over sixty dollars in loose ones, fives, a twenty, and a bunch of change. Turns out while I was soaking my feet a bunch of my friends had gone door to door asking for change to put into the 'poor katie' pot. (my friend eric had come up with the idea I found out later...he's such a nice guy) So all these band people I was only aquaintances with, gave up some of their money so i could buy new souviners for my family and have food. It was the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me. My day was looking up already. Also, three people were going home with their parents that day, and weren't going to be visiting the park so they all offered to give me their park passes. We went to the park and were going to be allowed to be there until eight at night when we were heading home. I went on all the rides I had wanted to go on, bought new souvinirs which survived, ate yummy food at the rainforest cafe, which I'd never been too, and all over had one of the best days ever. We got onto the bus and I went to sleep, and felt a lot better than i had the day before.

DAY 5-6: enter 14 hour ass numbing buss ride here. We were supposed to get home at 1 in the afternoon, but ended up getting home at 5. They gave us this lecture about how we needed to leave all our personal items on the bus until we unloaded all the instruments and things first. So I got off and everyone had the instruments and uniforms (besides, i didn't want to just pick up an instrument and walk off, I would hate it if a complete stranger was handling my stuff) so i went to go to the other side of the bus and start unloading hats. This stupid bitchy chaperone tepped inmy way and said 'you need to unload this bus first. dont go get your stuff, unload this bus first' and I told him 'hey, i'm just going to the other side of the bus to unload stuff', then he started yelling 'unload this bus first' I didn't know what to say to this guy that I WAS unloading that bus first. But he didn't understand. So while he was watching, I walked to the other end of the bus...and then went to the other side. hehehe. I thought that guy was going to have a coronary. After unloading everything, I called my parents and sat around waiting for them to come and pick me up. I was the last person there. I thought they had forgotten about me. They came finally, and I got to go home. Aaahhh, number one thing ot do on my list of things to do was take a shower. Two days on a bus can really make you reek. Number two on my list of things to do was take a nap. Although I'd slept for fourteen hours, I just wanted to lay down for a while. So I put my bags on the couch, and went to go downstairs. Before I had left, we were re-walling meghans room and painting it to make into a sitting room of sorts. They said it was done being painted and had the carpet in and wanted me to go see it almost finished. I walked in, and Kandis was videotaping me. They had done the room entierly in japanese stuff. It looked so cool. They had put a futon in the cornor for a bed, and painted all my furniture black, and gotten some more bamboo and candles, and all kinds of stuff. It looked awesome. I didn't know what to say, so I fell on the floor. This was my new room. And I loved it.

whew. That took a while I know, but I thought you'd all like to hear how my break went. I left a lot of stuff out, but that was all the main jist. Ta da. So my shitty week turned out to be pretty good after all. Even though I didn't get a picture of me barfing....mmm....and my bacon is done cooking....Mmmmmm.....breakfast.....

 

[thegreatgoombah]

i'm so....dead...

I feel.....lost..today. I dont know why. I feel...like a third wheel. Unwanted, unloved, and I dont know why. Around my friends I get that 'go away' vibe, and I dont know why. Kandis backstabbed me, I can't tell anyone anything any longer for fear of someone finding out and being angry....I dont know how I feel anymore. The emotions are foreign to me, and there's no way to describe them except to avoid eye contact and crawl into my bed. erm....futon...yes...well, hopefully it's just a stage and it will be gone by the weekend. *sigh* hopefully...

 

[thegreatgoombah]

well... i feel better...

I think...not so lost really anymore. Went on a date with jack last night. good times, even though I ran out of things to say midway through..silence is nice. I was reading over poems today (damn english assignment...two hours of interpreting poetry later, and my ears were bleeding) and I read one that really pinned down how I felt the other day....so that's going to be my creative writing for today, too much hmwk to make this a big entry....*sigh*

The lonliness is closing in, it's dark and void of life,
It lets the anger take control, and causes all the strife.
The anger is engulfing me, and no one hears the call,
The tears they flow incessantly, and no one hears them fall.

Icy fingers hold my hand, anxiety draws a thin line,
There seems no out of this in, my soul has lost its mind.
This pain is hard to put away, this hurt sure takes it's toll,
Fears they come much quicker now, drowning my tortured soul.

Shadows are surrounding me, so black and bleak and blind,
The path they take has no control, and neither does my mind.
The darkness is so very cold, it takes my breath away,
Indeed my death no one will mourn, and hell will have me stay.

This life I can no longer bear, all hope is lost for me,
Journeys end comes swiftly now, and I am left to be.
This painful knowledge is exact, it knows not how to die,
My life goes on in deep remorse, and I know not why.


I think that's my favorite poem..next to The Bells my Poe...god thats a masterpiece. ah well, off to try and beat that homework monkey off my back with a piece of bacon.

 

[thegreatgoombah]

Ahhh!!! The PAIN!!! AHHHHHHHHH

>.>
<.<
ah..there was a hair in my contact... ouchies....
*sigh* all my friends got to go to the Linkin Park concert tonight. I wanna go!! but nooooo my mother thinks i'm going to do drugs or something. Uh hello..earth to mother... they've been brainwashing me ever since I was in kindergarten that drugs are bad..you think I'm going to? Especially since I have this inane nack for getting in trouble even when I toe a teeny bit out of line?
lalala....oh yea.... late HAPPY EASTER...I was going to get on and wish you all a happy easter, but I was too busy scraping bad ham out of the bottom of my stomach.
Awww.. my dogs cute! We found cancer on her a couple months ago, and if we took her to the vet, all they'd do is put her down, so we're letting her hobble along, spending her last days in happiness. Hmm..well then...that makes it sound like she's on her death bed doesn't it? She's not..actually we dont REALLY know how long she has to live, but it'll be a couple of years. l
Well..there's nothing much to say really. The past three days has been non stop homework. I hardly had time to sleep or eat, but I managed. So maybe when something intersting happens, like I discover that I'm the long lost daughter to a rich king who lives in a country full of hot guys, or jack makes a move on me or something, I'll write again. Or maybe I'll write again anyway and bore your ears off! Yay! Isn't freedom of speech fun!
You killed gwama! Destwoy!!!

 

[thegreatgoombah]

frustrating...

I'm looking for a college that has Japanese as a major and an ROTC program...or one that just has Japanese as a major. Cant find any. *sigh* I'm hoping for an ROTC program also, because otherwise I'll have to pay my own way through college, and for some reason that doesn't particularly strike me as fun at the moment. I dont even have a job yet (i know I know, on my todo list....geez, i'm such a procrastinater) so I dont understand how I'd raise enough money for paying my way through college. Especially since I want a doctorate in japanese..grrr. Scholarships maybe? Any ideas or feedback welcome! (pleeeeeese...>.> <.<)
We had the biggest rainstorm here then we've had all year. It was pretty cool. There was thunder and lightening (hehe, getting all excited...since I've moved here from indiana, there's been a total of 10 major thunder/lightning storms...and I've lived here 11 painful, torturous years...*sigh*) So I sat outside and got thouroughly soaked. Boo yah.
...lightening again...gotta get of. Dont want to get electrocuted and die or something. hehe, I could see that happening actually....

 

[thegreatgoombah]

*sigh*

It's so early in the morning, i can hardly see straight. Well....techinically it's not THAT early, i get up earlier on a school day...but it's Saturday. It's not natural to be up at five. *sigh* damn babysitting jobs. Well, at least the kids are still asleep... I was only suposed to babysit these kids from eight in the morning to three in the afternoon....but they changed the times and wanted me to babysit from six thirty to about 11 at night. That's a 17 hour day. With early church service tomorrow. I think i'll be sick. Weekends are for sleeping in! and if I didn't need this money so bad, I'd have done just that. I treasure my sleep. Every minute of it I can get I relish because I've always gone through life tired. Always tired. Constantly yearning for a little shut eye but doomed to never get it. But I'm funny...you see, it takes me at least an hour or two to actually achieve that nirvana like state called sleep, I wake up very easily, which then takes at least another hour to get back to sleep again, I can't ever sleep past nine thirty in the morning, and for some reason my body doesn't let me take naps. It doesn't want to go back to sleep once it's awoken fully. Hence the constantly baggy eyes, loss of appetite and that strange side effect of sleep loss when everything someone says is funny. Downright hilarious. Like the word 'elephant'...have you ever just thought how funny that word is?...most likely you haven't. But you should....it's quite amusing.
Meghan came over and tried to kick me off the computer the other day. I just laughed. What a loser. Who does she think she is coming into a house she got kicked out of and try to order me around. Her presence has been an unwarranted annoyance to me long enough. I'm going to put some alum in her coffee. hehe, I'd try it on kandis, but from years of practical jokes, both of us are wary about the foods we eat that have been givin to us. And there's no way I can slip it on something after she gets it out to eat. once again, years of practical jokes have made us very suspicious. And since meghan is stooopid, she'll just eat whatever I give her so quickly, she wont even know what it is until it hits her. Mwahahahaha!!! Mwahahahahaha!!!!! >.>
<.<
...the kids are up. Wish me luck, and I pray that they amuse themselves all day. Idle hands lead to the devils work or something like that....

 

[thegreatgoombah]

*sigh* god make the pain end

I can't feel my arms. Lovely. I can't feel my legs. Even more lovely. Whups...there goes sensation all together. I dont even know why I'm doing this. (oh...uh..guess I should fill you guys in huh?...haven't written in awhile...bad bad katie...) I'm trying out for flag corps captain, because the two good ones we have are seniors and everyone else that's trying out cause my eye to twitch. So I've taken it upon myself to make captain( god i must have been high when I decided this...) I'm gonna make captain. heh. riiiiiiiiight. I'm only a first year. I shouldn't be allowed to try out. But they're letting me. I have to write my own routine to a song of my choice (Hack Liminality from some anime show I've watched...dont remember which one) I was going to do Ego Brain by system of a down, but..it's kinda hard to flag to that, and quite frankly, it'd probably ruin it for me seeing as I can't visualize someone doing a flag routine with a bright colored flag to system of a down. (*shudder* that'll be the first thing I'm changing. God our uniforms are horrendous..this year they're going to be bright pink. Can I!? PlEaSe!! SIGN ME UP!!!) So anyway, I've been flagging non stop really since monday. I came home from school, flagged until nightfall, came home from school tuesday, flagged again until nightfall, in the rain. Wednesday (today for those who have abnormal fears towards calendars) i came home, flagged until six thirty, ate some chips, flagged more, and now i'm here taking a break, because when your arms lose feeling after hurting for three days straight, I take it as a bad sign.
*sigh* time for more flagging. God, and now I think i'm getting sick. I dont have time to be sick, so of course I'll trudge through the rest of the week, practice my ass off this weekend, then go drag myself with my fingers through next week (flag try out week) teaching stupid people how to twirl a flag and not kill themselves, perform my routine, the end of which you know is near when your eyes fall out, and then sit through the grueling interview and voting part. Just great. Can't hardly wait...(ooh..good movie) And I want my beanie back!!!! >.< This girl I'm friends with "accidentaly" brought it home with her one day, and i've been trying to get it back for two weeks. I'm just going to storm over to her house and take if back if I dont see it tomorrow. I'm out of patience, feeling, and mercy. Today in history class, this stupid jerk whom I hate came up to my desk and just started clicking his pen over and over and over while speaking through that hideous thing called a face, 'Does this annoy you? Does this annoy you? Does this annoy you?' no..but your voice sure does, now knock it off and walk away while you still have the legs to do so, and consider yourself lucky I haven't ripped your hand off and slapped you with it..bastard. >.<

 

[thegreatgoombah]

It's that time of year again!

School elections! Ah, you know the school year is almost at an end when you start to see those annoying hand made flyers popping up everywhere. Vote for me! Vote for me! No me!!....and give me one reason why I should. I remember the year you made fun of me for my laugh, and the year you spilled soda on me and the mocked me with all your friends. Yessss I even remember the year you pissed me off for no apparent reason, and ever since then I've wanted to rip your head off. Listen to me all you sheep out there! Dont vote! You'll be capitulating to a completely totalitarianistic system in which the overall popular consensus of the student body takes reputational standards to the unacceptable levels of conceded propaganda and the blissful panorama of life will be dismissed by our apparently "busy" student council; which is, in all means of conceptual views of reality, indolent.
I'm done...I think....nope...alright..there, i'm done.
lalala. >.< I knew I was getting sick. I went to school today with a minor cold and then I had to play soccer for an hour and a half in the sun, which, with my already weakened body, caused me to get sun poisoning. >.< good thing I felt it comming on, and went inside before it got bad. All I have are chills and a fever. Oh, and nausea...but no projectile vomiting, so I count myself as lucky. Now, off to bed to sleep the sun off. :up:

 

[thegreatgoombah]

phew

Thank God I can breath again. No more flagging until next school year. I tried out, and didn't make captain, but I got lieutenant which is just as good, because you have the power of a captain, without the responsibilities. Hurray! oh, Happy mothers day to all you mothers reading this...which probably numbers zero...
For Mothers day, we cleaned my mothers car which turned into a four hour project because it was REALLY dirty. I made her a yummy breakfast of sausage, eggs, popovers with a fruit topping i made out of strawberries, blueberries and blackberries, and she also had hasbrowns. I got her a card, and I started making her dinner out of some of her favorite foods - beef and barley soup, ceasar salad, beef and noodles, green beans, and asparagus. OMFG. o.o i just looked at the time. It's 5.20. My god. I've finally sat down to some rest for the first time today, and it's five twenty. Where did the day go!? I still have homework to do!! Noooooooo!!!!!! *gets on knees and begs for the school year to just be over and done with* If you couldn't tell, I'm all schooled out. Life sucks. God, you go thorugh school being dragged kicking and screaming the entire way, only to have to go through college and drag yourself kicking and screaming the entire way, only to graduate and get a job, and drag yourself kicking and screaming the entire way. No wonder there are so many spiritless people out in the world today. Life is just plain boring. It's not worth getting up in the morning when it's the same monotonous existence day after day after day. Who said you had to grow up and be a functional pawn in society? Well..besides my parents who seem to have that as their catch phrase. I mean seriously! my god! What's the point of even attempting to have fun in life when you finally wake up and look at the big picture and realize it's all one color? So you have a 9-5 job sitting behind a desk doing computer work all day. Is that what you really wanted to do? What about all those aspirations to go to the moon, or become a fireman, or invent oxygen in a can!? (oh..wait..that's already been done...uh...never mind..) So I want to be a translator and live in japan. Where's the spice? Lately I've kind of lost that little kick that makes me want to roll myself out of bed. I'd rather just lay there and dream. *sigh* I'm sure it's school. As soon as summer rolls around, I'll be free..oh no wait..my parents are making me get a job. Grrr. >.< I need a vacation....

 

[thegreatgoombah]

tra la la

Skipping through my day, letting it slide past. Been so tired lately. Hmmm....maybe if I'd eat food..yes..food, sounds yummy. I'm makin dinner tonight, it be pork something or other with saurkraut. God I love saurkraut. I could eat the stuff out of a can. Hmm...I do eat it out of a can. Ah well, you think that makes me weird? Of course it does!

I have two major projects due at the moment. One in health where I'm doing it on AIDS and another one in science class where I'm doing it on leprosy. Fun fun fun. And I have tonight, tonight only to get it allllll done because my parents have this habit of booking my weekends without asking me. Gee thanks guys. Dont know what I'd do without you...oh wait...i'd have a life.... >.> <.<

school is almost over!! Hurray!!!! I can't wait for the summer!!! lalala, staying inside all day where it's dark and cool. ahhhh, and I dont have any activities this summer that will make me want to leave my house, so I should be set to go. OH wait...hopefully I should be getting a job soon...maybe that might affect my plans. Ah only slightly. Whups. *looks at the time* grrr..damn projects