** ambition and inspiration **

[RainingStar]

* The Sun Shines *

Well... I guess things are getting better.

Nothing happened on Valentine's Day. I performed with Laughing Stock and that was fun. Not my best show but it was still nice to get out and actually do something.

I am looking forward to the Salt City Improv show on the 19th. I was also supposed to perform with Off The Wall Bountiful but it was cancelled. It was kind of funny though. I was the first there and then Jesse came and we sat in his car and talked and then one by one more cars just started showing up and it was so cold so we were all just sitting in our cars occasionally running back and fourth to see what was going on. Then we all just left. It was nice to see some of the people I haven't seen in a while. For a minute it almost seemed like a Quick Wits Clearfield reunion.

I am so thankful that Abby is my friend. She is going to help me out with some College Papers and just help me figure out where I need to be. That has been such a stress of mine for so long and I needed help so much and Abby is great at this she loves doing it and I am so excited to get started. I am pretty busy as it is but I will make time for this. Abby is also so much fun to talk to, we can always make a bad situation funny. It seems like we are always going through that same things at the same time, or at least they are similar. It is so good to have her to talk to.

I submitted a few demo tapes to some local and out of state stations to see what my chances are because I am so bored with my job. I want something big to happen. I would love to actually broadcast but not with KSL, this company is screwed up in so many ways. Oh well something good will happen for me. I can just feel it and I am ready to do whatever it takes for that to happen.

I am excited to do improv again. I don't have to push myself. From here I think things will be fine. It just gets hard sometimes and I break down. But I am very lucky to be surrounded by friends and people that care and I am very lucky to have what I have.

I got a letter from Shawn that was very sweet. And I got to talk to Yvonne over the weekend. That was nice she told me that after her wedding it is a slight possibility that she may move back to Utah. I would love to see her.

I am feeling like me again. And it can only get better. I just need to keep thinking positively. I am not really sure if I want to go to Chicago or New York this year. I would love to do both but I can't. I also will be going to Oregon sometime and Georgia to visit Zach and South Carolina for Yvonne's wedding. So I can only choose one. Hmmm. Something to think about.​

 

[RainingStar]

* Left of the Middle *

I have been trying to keep myself pretty busy so that I don't have to sit around and think about things.

I had lunch yesterday with Micki, Jesse, and Jen. We went to a Greek Cafe. I am probably one of the most picky eaters ever. It wasn't even all that bad I just pretty much ate rice. Jesse suggested a plate that I might like and I am glad that he did because I was so confused. I ate most of it surprisingly but can't say that it was my favorite.

It was nice to sit down with those guys. Jesse and Micki had to go back to work and Jen and I just stayed and talked for about an hour and a half. It was good to talk to her again. I remember when we performed over at Trolley Square we used to sit outside the theatre on the steps and just tell each other funny stories that were happening. She played Blitzen in The Eight Reindeer Monologues I was Vixen and I think that was when we actually got to know each other. That was a lot of fun. When we went to Chicago I roomed with her and Jady and we all bonded very well.

I was sad when Jen left. After talking with her yesterday I realize a lot has changed. I am not entirely sure that she will be returning to improv. She has a lot that she wants to do and she is kind of having a hard time right now adjusting to being back, I am hope that in time she will be able to figure it all out. But I am very glad that I got the opportunity to talk with her for a while.

On my way home yesterday Jake called me and asked how I was doing. We talked for a little while. It was a very nice thing for him to do. He told me that he wants to take me to lunch because he hasn't seen me in a while. So we will probably go sometime next week. I am just flattered that he would have even been thinking about me enough to call me.

My roommate is out of town for about three weeks. I kind of like having the place to myself but sometimes it is kind of lonely and I am living downtown so I don't feel real safe but I am not worried. She is not really there all that often anyway, but it is different for some reason. I have been doing a lot of reading and writing lately. It is kind of nice.

Last night I went to the Salt City Improv rehearsal. And when I got there I found that the door was locked so I knocked not noticing the note on the door that said please don't knock... ha ha :blush: :tsk: Under that it said that auditons were being held for Plan B theatre and that Salt City Improvisors could meet at the Library. I ran away because I did not want someone to come open the door and be angry with me for knocking. It was pretty funny. I love when I can laugh at myself.

So I went to the Library and found my group just sitting at one of the tables. There were only four of them so I joined them and we just talked about improv and the show last Thursday, which by the way went extremely well. I really like Kris he is the one who put this whole thing together, I like the way he plays games and he is very ambitious which is kind of contagious around him. While we were all talking some crazy lady came up and started talking to us about how the President had called her to ask her about Iraq and what she thought about the war and the voting and president Bush and President Clinton she went off on that for a while. It was fascinating to listen to her because she really thought that all of this had happened to her, that the President called her and that her approval was vital for their decisions. But we had to get back to class which I was personally quite thankful for because I never know what to say in those situations. I usually find my attention wandering and thinking about random things or finding a stain on the floor and wondering how it got there. Yeah maybe it is mean of me but I cant help it. I don't know what to do. :bleagh: Oh well...

I have been kind of taking charge of my Trolley Brawl team and I feel kind of bad but we need to get things done! This show is in 3 weeks and I finally feel like being active again and doing things so I am doing all that I can! I just hope that it all works out.

I think that everything so far is working out for the best as it usually does. Nathan and I still talk, it is kind of odd. I am not really sure how to be around him. I just wish that he could find something that will make him happy, and not so angry at the world. He is a good guy, I think he just needs to figure out who he wants to be.

Shawn and I have been communicating through e-mails every week. 6 months is not a long time. That is when he will be home. I don't have high hopes or expectations of the situation anymore. I am prepared for that too. I am just going to let things happen for me. I am not going to worry about it. The thing I want for Shawn is for him to be happy. He is a great friend of mine and that is all I could ever ask for.

There is a lot going on right now that could lead me somewhere and might not. But I guess you never know. For the moment things are okay. ​

 

[RainingStar]

* Scream with me *

Something is wrong with me.

I am not myself at all. For some odd reason I am upset about the break up with Nathan. I don't know why. He is shallow he is rude, he used me and he certainly had me fooled. Why do I care? I wish I knew. I did a lot of good things for him for nothing.

My vehicle was broken into about 88 CD's stolen and they ripped out my CD player and completely destroyed my passenger side door lock. What is wrong with people. Sure it was my fault for leaving these things in my car but my CD's were under my seat I was in a "Claim to be (Secured) parking garage." Apparently not and I was only there for two hours.

It's just stuff it can be replaced.

I have still been doing improv for Salt City and Laughing Stock both are going well. My team for Trolley Brawl I think will be just fine I was worried about some little things but I think that I was just stressing for nothing. I have four members on my team all of which I have been doing improv with for at least 2 years and I trust them and I know that we will be great. I am thankful to have such a great team.

I also auditioned for Peeta Pun and the Pirates. It is a show at Off Broadway Theater that is a parody of Peter Pan. I got a call back so we'll see how that goes.

I want to be busy! I want to keep myself moving so that I don't sit around and be sad. I won't if I keep busy.

I have a date tomorrow. A lovely man. His name is Tim. I am looking forward to it. We just clicked when we met so we'll see how it goes. I am not doing real well trusting people especially people I date so I hope I don't hold that against him.

I am just a mess right now. I need to pull it together. I will be fine! ​

 

[RainingStar]

* My only sunshine *

I am pretty content right now.

Things have been going significantly better than before. I am doing what I wanted to do and that is keeping busy.

I made the show that I auditioned for. "Peeta Pun and the Pirates." at Off Broadway Theatre. The show was written by Eric Jensen who is also the director and I have really been looking forward to working with him more. He is a very talented person. Yay! :loopy: Our opening night is not until April 23 and we will be performing on my birthday but that is all right. I am really excited for this. The cast is so much fun to be around. We had a rehearsal last night and we just had so much fun we laughed 50% of the time we were there. I love the script to it is just an all around fun show.

For the past two nights I have been hanging out with some improv friends. :banana: Ryan is in town and last night they had a little barbeque. It was so nice to just go and hang out with some old KYSOffers I miss everyone. It was really nice. It is good to see Ryan I am really excited to see what his team has planned for Trolley Brawl it sounds like it will be very good.

Trolley Brawl is on Sunday. Wow. My team is ready I think. :up: The shirts are done, the form is done, I may have found some opening music for us and my team is up against some tough competition but I think everyone in the audience is going to have a hard time voting. All of the teams are so talented and have some really amazing people on them.

Jady comes in tonight I think. Me her and Jen are going out to lunch tomorrow I am looking forward to it. And then my whole Trolley Brawl team gets to come together and rehearse.

I have been working on a demo tape to send all over the place in hopes of getting a job offer in reporting. I am also working on making my resume more presentable and I am really wanting to finish school so we will see what happens with all of that.

I have been telling everyone that I am planning on moving to Hawaii. That is a long time goal of mine. I would love to live there. What could possibly be so bad to bring a person down there. You are in Hawaii. Though the cost of living there is pretty expensive I just feel like I would be so happy. I would like to work with wild life animals out there. Probably more of the marine life than others. But like I said that is a long time goal of mine we'll see what happens.

Shawn sent me a little picture book of what is happening on his mission and in his life so I thought that it would be kind of fun to put together a book of photographs entitled a day in the life of me to let him know what is going on in my life. It is pretty funny and it has been fun putting it together I may make a copy or two to send to my parents and just to keep to show my children if I ever have any.

Well... It is time to end this entry because I have to get back to work now. Bye. :wave: ​

 

[RainingStar]

* My Agenda *

I am pretty happy right now.

Trolley Brawl over all was a great show. I think it was very long but it was fun. I am so impressed by TriniBen. They were so much fun to watch. It was good to see Ryan and Jady as well. My team did great I am so happy that they put up with me. I sort of went crazy at the last minute but we had a lot of fun and a good show.

My good friend, Dave Sawyer from Martha's Vineyard came into town for a few days and hung out with me. :blush: We had a great time, he is such a fun person to be around. He got to meet most of the Utah improvisors and everyone was just very nice and it was a great week.

Having him here was what I needed. Just a break from my everyday routine. It was very nice.

I am half way to reaching my weight loss goal :up: which is going very well but when Dave was here I didn't exercise and I ate food I know that I should not have. Oh well I am back to working out again and eating better. I finally found what works for me.

I will not be able to go to Chicago this year sadly because I am doing the show at The Off Broadway Theatre. But I am loving doing it. I love the cast of this show. We are all having a good time getting to know each other and I can't wait until we open.

The SLC Skirts submitted a team to The Del Close Marathon I am hoping that we get in. I want to go so bad. I can't wait until May 11 to find out. Even if my team doesn't get accepted I think I might just go anyway. Dave will be there and I am pretty sure that some of the North Carolina people will be there and I want to see everyone.

I am working on getting a new job and I am very confident. I've been working on my resume, cover letter, and a demo tape for reporting, public relations, and journalism to send. I will be sending this tape out around the country so hopefully something good will come from it. Not ending up in Idaho.

I am at work right now and I am going crazy. These people are so strange. Our morning anchor whistles non-stop all day! And then randomly sings 80's songs and spouts out lines from the movie "Miracle." Mainly the only line he knows which is "This is your time!"

This morning I was on a head set and the anchor was singing one of his songs and the guy next to me was singing some other song and then my director came over the head set and started singing something else. I had this image in my head that at any moment we would all jump into a choreographed dance and song and the only song that came to my head was Michael Jackson "Beat It." It was kind of a funny image. Oh good times at work.

I have to get going now. I have some things to do. Bye. :wave:

​

 

[RainingStar]

* sing with me *

"Fear less, hope more;
Whine less, breathe more;
Talk less, say more;
Hate less, love more;
And all good things are yours."

This is very similar to how I am feeling lately. :blush: There are so many things happening at once and it is incredible. Nothing that I can really call bad. A lof of changes.

My roommate informed me that she will be moving out in August. Which can be a stressful situation if I let it become that. :tsk: This gives me 5 months to find a new roommate and stock up on some items that I don't really have such as dishes, more furniture, etc... I may have already found someone to move in but nothing is set in stone at the moment.

I have some very auspicious jop opprtunities possibly headed my way. I am keeping my fingers crossed. :angel: I have an interview tomorrow for a Traffic Reporting position on the radio. Sounds fun and will get me out of my current job which I complain about too much.

The show.... Peeta Pun and the Pirates. Opening April 23 not too far away. I am very excited for it. It has just been such a fun situation for me. I really get along with the cast members and feel very welcome and I always look forward to the rehearsals and opening and for my friends and family to come see it. It has been so wonderful working on it, the song that I was so worried about really isn't that bad at all. I am having a good time with the music and dancing :jump: in the show. Laughing Stock is also always a pleasure to be a part of. All together OBT has really been good to me.

I played at Off The Wall on Saturday and had so much fun doing it. I am extremely impressed with Jake and Skaughttie for opening up this theatre and making their dream and desire to play come true. It is growing and I am thankful that I had a chance to play and support them in any way that I can. I miss playing with those guys. The cast was me, Lisa, Laine, Jake, and Ben. It was a good time and a pretty good show. Laffender Ink opened and they were hilarious. I am still learning a little about this switching over in a scene change it is really cool when it works. Lisa is such a fun person to be around she just casts this positive feeling around everyone. Jake is just happy to have this place and I couldn't be happier for him he has a very big furture in front of him I think good things will happen for him. :up:

Yesterday I had lunch with Luke (who is in town for a few days), Jesse, Joe Beatty, Mario, and Jen. We ate at Chili's and Andrew was our waiter it was kind of fun. It was nice to see Luke. He seems to be pretty happy in Florida. Me and Jen went with him afterward to buy some shoes and it was fun. I was a little tired so I felt bad for not being more talkative but I still had fun. It has been nice to hang out with some people that I haven't been able to see, I just feel good with pretty much all aspects right now.

It seems like there are a few people trying to be the boss. It is somewhat irritating and disturbing. As improvisors I thought we all worked as a team together to get what we want accomplished there isn't really a leader. It just sometimes seems like there is someone that's trying to prove that they are better. For what? and more importantly for who? We are this great group of people who all have our own personalities and realities and we all know that we would be there for each other if we ever needed and inside we all love each other like a family but at the same time we cut each other down. I wish I understood that. I had to write this because I could just sense it and see it a couple times this weekend.

I am doing well. I am pretty happy. I am working on buying a new car eventually and I am really looking forward to my trip to New York and North Carolina. I am really wanting to fit in a little trip to Oregon too if I can to see my mom and dad. It is gorgeous out there in the summer. Well actually it is always gorgeous out there. But the summer is just a bit warmer and the ocean is more calm. I am working hard and finally making some accomplishments and I am proud of some decisions I have had to make.

Jady and I decided to submit a team of our own to The DCM just for fun. Who knows if we'll make it. We call ourselves "Audrey and Marilyn." It fits and I think it would be superb. Good times. It is so exciting. It will be so cool if the SLC Skirts get accepted again too. We had a great time last year and I know we would be bigger and better this year. Plus it will just be great to have the ladies together again hanging out.

That's all for now. Have a good day. :wave: ​

 

[RainingStar]

* Too Much ? *

I think that I may have bit off more than I can chew. :bleagh:

There is so much going on right now. The show opens on Friday. This week has been tech week and we don't get out of there until pretty late. I haven't really slept in about 4 days and I feel terrible. And I find myself getting frustrated and easily irritated for no reason at all. I just need to get some sleep.

I haven't had much time because I started a new job in Traffic Reporting and that is taking up more time to get me trained than I thought it would. I can do it but I usually end up waking up at 3:30am to go to my news job until 1pm then I go to the Traffic Operations Center for a couple of hours. Sometimes I have to work at Starbucks. Then rehearsal starts at 6:30 and last night we got out of there about mid-night. Any other free time I have this week has been spent on driving or running errands.

I am happy with all that is happening for me just tired and can't wait for it to tame down a bit.

I haven't had much time for improv. I miss hanging out with the Salt City Improv group. They have an up-coming show I would really like to play in but we'll see what happens. I miss everyone really. It hasn't even been long since I have seen anyone and I still really enjoy the cast of the show I am in I just like seeing everyone.

I think that I am going to have a birthday party for my birthday on April 30th :up: but I don't think that the party will be until May 1st just because it would be easier. I am looking forward to it but the planning kind of sucks.

My roommate is moving out pretty soon and I have been trying to look for some furniture and other things that I want for my place. I am excited to do my own thing there. I want to paint my living room but finding time is another thing.

Oh well. I wanted all of this for myself and I still do. I do need to at least find a little time for sleep I think I am starting to get sick because of it. That's all for now.
If you are reading this I hope you have a lovely day. :wave:​

 

[RainingStar]

* It's been a while *

Well.... Where to start? It's been quite a while since I last wrote in this journal.

Hmmm... What has changed. I am still doing shows at the Off Broadway Theatre with Laughing Stock and still loving it and the people they are so wonderful to me I am very fortunate and couldn't be more thankful to be a part of that. :up:

I am leaving for New York next week to participate in the Del Close Marathon. I am so excited I need a vacation and it will be so cool to hang out with the girls again from SLC Skirts. Austin, Scottie, and Jake P. will also be joining us out there and those North Carolina guys and gals that I like so much. I am kind of sad that Jesse will not be attending the festival this year. It is always a pleasure to have him around. I like that city and I like the improv and I like the people... Well... Most of them. Ha ha.

I had lunch with Jesse the other day and it was so good to see him and chat it has been a while and we had a lot of fun, he is a good guy. :angel:

The past two weeks have been kind of funny to me. Part of the reason I love doing improv and shows at the Off Broadway Theatre with Laughing Stock is because they are not so dramatic. They don't thrive on drama! Everyone gets along and there are not a bunch of false rumors going around. Its a group of friends having a good time on stage. That is how it should be.
It seems like with my experience in improv that there is so much drama everywhere else. Everyone has to be all over everyone's business and gossiping about whatever kind of trash they can dig up. :tsk: Now I know that I am guilty of this and any person who says that they are innocent is a liar! But lately it just seems so juvenile. I feel like it should be past now like it is so old and we've grown up a bit but I guess that some people just didn't get that. I am not really sure why people talk about things that they know nothing about? Not only does it make whoever they are talking about look bad but it makes them look worse for saying it when the truth comes out.
Is it to make them feel better about themselves? Who knows. My opinion of it is that it is lame and childish and I feel sorry for people who don't have anything better to do. Find a new hobby! :bleagh:

Okay... I had to get that out.

Things are going pretty good for me right now. After I get home from New York I will be leaving again for Oregon to see my family and RELAX! I have really been looking forward to this. While I am in New York my understudy will be taking over for the show at OBT then when I return she will be understudying for another girl in the show. That will be the last weekend. It has been a great show with a superb cast. I am still thinking about being in the next show because school starts on August 25th and between two jobs I am worried about time.

I recently met someone. :blush: Yeah... here I go again on my pathetic love life. But this time may not be so pathetic I have a really good feeling about this. I have been very happy and calm and I just feel good ever since I met him. He's not an improvisor but he makes me laugh and that is lovely. I don't want to mislead or jinx myself about this whole thing though so I am not going to say too much about and we'll see what happens. But like I said I feel really good about this.

I have still seriously been thinking about moving. I don't know where but I think that better opportunities can happen for me somewhere else. I would like to check out some other improv groups in other states. That would be fun.

Well, that's all from me for now. :wave:​

 

[RainingStar]

* Start spreading the news... *

New York has been awesome!!! First I just want to say that The SLC Skirts performance was fabulous. I am quite happy about it! We all did great.

I got here on Wedenesday the 28th and stayed the night with my friend Shelly we met up with Scottie and went to eat at the Seinfield Restuarant. It was fun.

The next day I took a cab to the Hotel that we were staying at and waited for Laine to get there. I walked around to see what was around our hotel which turns out to be a lot of stuff. Time Square was only about 10 short blocks away. The UCB Theatre was not bad either about a mile.

When Laine came we checked into our Hotel and went to meet Scottie, then Jady and Austin came and we met up with them. It was a little scary because the Hotel we were staying in had some odd rules, and we had more people staying in our room than we said we did. We thought that they might find out but they didn't. It actually turned out great.

After Jady and Austin came we all walked to the Theatre to see where it was and then some people from North Carolina were meeting for a late lunch so we went to meet them at a Thai Food Restaurant. Slowly people from North Carolina were showing up I met Eric first he is a very fun person. Then Corey came by with someone else but I can't remember who. Sorry. Emily called my phone and said that she would be at the Hotel soon so Laine went to meet her. We all just talked and reminissed and I had some amazing Iced Coffee it was delicious. More North Carolina people showed up and I met a lot of them. I could not stop laughing though because Jady got up to go to the bathroom but there was a little line so while she was waiting she had made eye contact with Scottie and started dancing for him. There was a guy at the table in front of us who thought that she was dancing for him and so he was bobbing his head along with the music and the woman he was sitting next to asked kind of loudly if she was doing it for him and we all realized that he thought she was and started laughing. She turned bright red it was so funny. I don't think I could ever forget that.

After some time Laine and Emily returned and it was so good the see Emily I haven't seen her forever!!!

We all headed to the Theatre and Amy Pohler (which I spelled wrong) and another guy I don't remember anyone's name, announced this Del Close Documentary that we watched and it was good. It made me realize the kind of a man Del Close was there were some pretty funny stories that people told. I was glad that I saw the show. After that there was a cage match but I didn't stay for that. Jake Plumley showed up at The UCB and so me, Emily, Jake and his wife Dawn, Austin, Jady, and Scottie went to Time Square. Laine called and told us that there was an Improv Warming Party type thing at this bar called "Serena," I think, we all headed there. When I got there I saw Billy Merrit and he remembered me so I talked to him for a little bit. Heracio Sans was there too. I got to talk to Corey and hang out with him for a while and I talked to Dan Winkler and Ross, and hung out with the girls and just had a good time.

The thing about that place is that when I went into the bathroom there was a tendant in there. When I went to wash my hands she pumped soap into my hand and turned the water on and gave me a towel. There were breathmints, gum, lotion, make-up, all kinds of stuff in there. It was weird. Apparantly the Men's bathroom had none of that. Ha Ha :loopy:

We all pretty much just went back to the Hotel at that point. A girl named Dana stayed with us that night from North Carolina nice girl. Laine came back to the Hotel a little later she came with Corey who stayed too so they were all sleeping on the floor. About 8am Lisa called and said she was on her way to the Hotel. Someone knocked at our door and when Jady opened it it tunred out to be Ryan Locante with two friends, they had driven up from Chicago so it was really cool to see him. Then Lisa came and we were all there. Finally we were all together. The New York Crew. Yay.Lisa went to have lunch with a work associate or something like that, Laine and everyone else went to Central Park and shopping, and Emily and I went to Serendipity because I really wanted to go. I ordered there famous Frozen Peanut Butter Hot Chocolate and it was so good. I was in heaven while drinking that. That was one place I really wanted to go I am so happy I did!

After that we all went to the Theatre for the beginning of the Festival which was pretty funny. I only stayed for the first part of it and then went with Laine, Ross and Eric to a different Theatre to see them perform. Then I decided to head back to the UCB and got in just in time to see "Baby Wants Candy." I love that group they are my favorite!!! I also kind of have quite the improv crush on Bob Dassie. :inlove: He is very talented.

Saturday Morning was when the SLC Skirts performed and I am so pleased with it. We didn't do so well last year and I haven't really been able to let it go it has actually really been bothering me for a long time but we did great this time and we weren't nervous and people were laughing a lot and we had a pretty good size audience and it felt great to be on stage again with us five girls. I love these guys. I really do. We had a great time. No rehearsal, no coach, no planning, we just got up there and did our thing and it was AMAZING!!! I am so proud of us and so happy.

Emily, Lisa, and I decided to go to Metropolitan Museum after that and as we were looking at the map trying not to look like tourists some people on the street walking by us suddenly told us that we did a great job in the show and so we talked to them for a little bit and then they asked if we needed directions so they helped us out as little. But the fact that they recognized us told us that we were great and were so nice about it I think made our day. Well at least it certainly did mine. I was so happy to hear that. We weren't that far away from the Theatre but to be told that when we are on the street in New York is a great thing. I am happy about it.

The Metropolitan Museum was pretty cool. We went and saw this part about how people dressed in the 18th Century and it was really cool. Besides that fact that my feet were killing me from walking around so much it was great to see all of that. Last year I spent most of the time at the Theatre because that is what everyone else did but I didn't want to do that this year. I wanted to see New York and I am so glad that I did.

After the museum we went back to UCB to try and get in for the shows that night but the line was long and not a lot of people were coming out of the theatre but there was a second theatre that had some pretty good stuff going on so we went there. And I am glas we did. We watched Dasariski which included my little crush Bob Dassie and some other phenomenal improvisors and it was hilarious. It was amazing a three man show and I was just in awe. That is why I love improv. Oh and Tina Fey was there too I ran into her in the hallway after the show and introduced myself it was pretty cool. I don't want to seem like a fan rather than a fellow improvisor so I didn't get a picture or anything. We all stayed to watch Austin's group in KEVLAR and they did a great job some really funny stuff.

We all headed to McManus after that and EVERYONE was there. I finally introduced myself to Bob Dassie and it was really cool he chatted with me for a minute and then I went and sat by everyone. Ryan, Jady, Scottie, Emily, Lisa, Austin, some of the wonderful NC crew. It was pretty cool. But I was getting Tired so Laine and I went back to the Hotel.

Sunday Morning the other Salt Lake team performed and they did pretty good. The team was Ryan, Jady, Laine, Jake P., Scottie, and Austin. They had some great stuff I laughed at a lot of it. We stayed to watch "Throw like a girl." From NC and I really enjoy watching CeCe I think she is extremely talented and a good improvisor.

The rest of the day I spent on my own and it was great. I went to Time Square and bought some souveneirs for friends and family and I got to see an old friend of mine named Rhyheim from working at Channel One. We went to the Village and had lunch at this place called "Caliente." Pretty tasty though I did have a gigantic Margarita and I don't do well with Tequila so I was a little tipsy when we left Rhyheim just laughed at me he thought it was funny. Then we went to the Pier. It was so cool. That was one of the greatest things I did on this trip. Seeing Rhyheim was great because he is such a fun person to be around. He makes me happy. Fun Fun Person.

We stayed at the Pier for a while because I was just taking it all in. Then we went to meet everyone at McManus. I didn't stay too long I didn't feel like drinking and I wasn't hungry and I was having fun with Rhyheim. I didn't see the last shows or the end of The DCM but I loved what I did see and I had a great time seeing New York. So I said my goodbyes to the NC people and told them I'd visit which I do plan on doing!

This Morning all that was left was me, Laine, Jady, Austin, and Emily. Lisa and Ryan and Scottie all left.

We had an interesting and funny conversation last night. Then this morning they all left and I got a funny picture of me and Austin brushing each others teeth. Now I am writing all this out waiting to go to the Airport. But I think that I am going to go walk around a little before I have to go. That's my New York Trip.

It was awesome I had a great time and I am so happy with all that happened. SLC Skirts are SUPERB! I love them. :wave:

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[RainingStar]

* I used too... *

When I was in Elementary School I won the spelling bee, sang in the choir, and I was the captain of the safety patrol. It is kind of funny to think about those things now but at the time these things were so important to me.

In Junior High School I got second place in the reflections program for writing, wrote for the school paper, was the editor for the yearbook commitee, participated in all the theatre shows we did there, I was on the volleyball team, the Peer Leadership Team, the activities commitee, the debate team, and the spanish club. I look back at those and I am proud of it I did a lot of hard work and had accomplished a lot at the age I was.

In High School I recieved a diploma of merit in Televison Broadcasting, Shawn and I won a first and third place competition in ballroom dancing, I went to Channel One for Student Produced Week, I was on the Dance Company, I worked with the drama department, I continued with the peer leadership team, joined a social improv group, played soccer on the side, I was a swimmer, and excelled in chemistry.

Right after high school I made a short film that won some big prizes in several film festivals I was in school and making good grades, good things were happening and I was happy and I knew that more was coming.

I was doing so well I was on a good road and my ambition was endless. I was ready to do anything I was ready to finish college and I was ready to be big! I am not really sure what has happened since then.

I fell weak. I let some things really get to me. I let it bring me down. I joined improv and a new kind of hope had entered my mind and it has taken me a lot more time than I had planned on to get back to where I should be. I am not even near being there right now. But my ambtion is building up again and I am getting involved again in things that will do something for me. I've seen a lot of people lately who have dreams but they just expect it to come to them. I expected it to come to me. I had forgotten how hard I had worked. But now I realize that its not just going to come to you! You have to work for it and want it and then an opportunity comes along. You have to be consistant!

I am upset that I have lost so much time but I am glad that I have realized it and I am ready to go again. Improv has helped me with so many aspects in my life. I have made a lot of GREAT friends from it and I cannnot imagine where I would be without it.

I am going back to school this semester and I can't wait. I am the type pf person that enjoys writing essays and I enjoy reading and I love school I love learning. I can't wait to go back I have been wanting this more than anything for a long time. But I support myself! It has taken me a while to get back on my feet. It seems like most people's parents pay for college but I would never ask my parents to do that. They would help me out a lot but I just find it kind of disrespectful of me to ask after I have shown them that I can be independent and I know that they are proud of me. They have already given me so much and the best thing that I can give back to them is show them that I love them and make them even prouder. I want to be able to give them what they have given me. A lot of love and happiness. It sound cheesy and I sound like a hippie but its what I want.

I see people at my job who are in their thirties and forties and they have been here since they were my age. I DO NOT want to do this for that long. I will be successful. I see people my age so spoiled they may be somewhat book smart but when it comes to being on their own they don't know the first thing about it. It's kind of sad and one day I think they'll get a rude awakening.

I worry too much. Sometimes so much that it makes me sick. Really!!! I am going to try not to do that anymore. I am making some changes and I know that this is right this is good for me. Shawn comes home beginning of October I cannot wait to talk to him. There is so much to say. I wish I could explain the connection but I can't write the words that describe the feeling. I am pretty sure nothing will happen between us but it will just be so great to have my best friend home again.

I love the feeling of ambition that I got from New York. Watching the shows there watching the improv there and it made me realize its time to change. This is just the beginning but it is going to be big and I am going to work hard to figure out what I want and I will get it!

This is an odd journal entry but its been on my mind lately and I wanted to write it down. Thanks for reading. Have a lovely day! :wave: ​

 

[RainingStar]

* Reality Bites *

I have been sick for about 8 days and it is really starting to drive me crazy! Will it ever go away?

We had Fem Fest 2 the other night. Over all it was a successful show and I think that all of the girls did really well. But I am also glad that it is over.

Let's face it. Girls are bitches to each other.... :angel: Why? Well its pretty simple in most cases its jealousy, which is just lame! I went to the class that Joe was teaching for the girls on Saturday but I couldn't stay long, I had a good time while I was there. But during that class and during the performance I just felt un-welcome!

I know at least one of the girls has problems with me. I don't know what those problems are because I see most of these people like once a month if even that. I just can't stand that way that girls are sometimes.

Being a girl I am the same way but I feel like I have grown up quite a bit and I have some friends that are girls that I absolutely love to be around because they're not mean they're not competing for attention, they're not trying to impress everyone, they're not a threat to me and I am not a threat to them! They don't talk shit about me when I'm not around or even when I am for that matter. So we just have a good time. I wish it were like that more often.

Being at that show last night reminded me of why I don't hang around most of those people. Some improv people thrive on drama and gossip and I just feel like I have moved past that. I have been told by like 5 different people that this girl doesn't like me for this reason and that girl doesn't like me for that reason. Well you know what I just don't care. Who wants to be around a person who talks about how much you're hated anyway? :tsk:

Don't get me wrong here. I am very thankful for being given the opportunity to be a part of this show and I am a strong supporter for the women in improv I just think that we lack the maturity of the adults that we are. I think that it is sad.

I got to share the stage with Jady and Lisa once again they are two of my girls in the Skirts and I love them. Two girls I had never played with before Amanda and Wendy, I am so impressed with their work they are up and coming and I hope they keep going with it. Micki in which I believe is one of her first shows in a while and I am so happy because she did great had fun lines, awesome scenes and it was cool to see her progress plus her and joe's baby is darling. Heather who I have not played with since Clearfield she did fantastic work and Jen who I haven't played with since KYSOFF before her mission.

The show was successful a large crowd who seemed to love it. But still I hope the audience didn't see what I felt. I wish that we could just love people despite their differences. There is always another side, and people CAN and DO change.

Not one member of Laughing Stock has ever been condescending to me. They have always been supportive and helpful in my progress. I appreciate that. I wish I saw more of that.

Speaking of Laughing Stock it has been going really well. They recently had the 10th anniversary OBT awards party and it was so cool to be there for that. After the party all of the improvisors that were still around got on stage for the later show and played. There were about 15 of us on stage and it was so fun. Good Times! We will also be having the Grabnet cast party this weekend in the mountains. It will be fun. :up:

Hmmm... What else... Well Shawn comes home in three weeks. Yeah. I am nervous, I am excited, I can't wait to see him. I'm not really sure how I am supposed to feel and I don't have one solid feeling about it. It's something that I have thought a lot about and I think that I am prepared to handle whatever comes from it. :blush:

I am buying a new car this week. Its a little stressful but I have been looking forward to it for a long time so that's a good thing. I test drove the greatest car last night and I am about 80% sure that I am going to buy it. It's and Acura RSX nice car.

Well I am a little tired and ready to go home from work. So I hope I haven't offended anyone with what I wrote in this entry but it is a journal and this is how I feel. Have a good day. :wave: ​