Today was one of those days where I felt everything I've ever felt from the past year or so. I dont know if Im depressed or if I just feel like this naturally....And If I'll always feel like this for the rest of my life. Like whenever something reminds me of how things were..or how I was...I just kind of flip..not like yell and scream flip but I just cry and think bad things. I use to be a totally different person before all this happened. And I hate myself for being like this. I dont do it intintually..it just comes and I try soo hard to hold it in. I cant believe Im typing this..but I dont really care,. I know tm or the next day I'll be fine. But right now im not. It kind of sucks though. Because I know that in a week or two or a month I'll go through something like this again.
I could write 10 songs or poems right now and they'd all have different meanings. - Thats how messed up I feel.
I need a comedian right now....speaking of; I was on teh cruise..and I saw a bunch of comedie shows and the best one was performed by Micheal Massey. He was soo funny. And it was cool. He said something that was really cool..."I just made someone forget about all there problems by making them laugh" When he said that I stopped thinking about the previous joke he had just told and no one has ever told me that and when i thought about it when I laugh...It does seem like whatever was on my mind always goes to the back. I wish I could be a comedian...I would soo have fun. Man thatd rock. But oh well.
I also saw rand woodbury and Marvin Bell...They were cool too. I also saw the 'sword swallower" Dai Andrews he was awesome. I want to go back.
-Later
Lose yourself in the music the moment
I could write 10 songs or poems right now and they'd all have different meanings. - Thats how messed up I feel.
I need a comedian right now....speaking of; I was on teh cruise..and I saw a bunch of comedie shows and the best one was performed by Micheal Massey. He was soo funny. And it was cool. He said something that was really cool..."I just made someone forget about all there problems by making them laugh" When he said that I stopped thinking about the previous joke he had just told and no one has ever told me that and when i thought about it when I laugh...It does seem like whatever was on my mind always goes to the back. I wish I could be a comedian...I would soo have fun. Man thatd rock. But oh well.
I also saw rand woodbury and Marvin Bell...They were cool too. I also saw the 'sword swallower" Dai Andrews he was awesome. I want to go back.
-Later
Lose yourself in the music the moment